Weasel1966

I unknowing had it all along. Blind I mean.

As for faith it's a fleeting enigma.

I must trust before I believe. With that idea of faith it defeats the purpose.

So I have to put trust aside as well. In fact I have put many things aside that I once clung to with a death grip.

I used arrogance as a way of putting people off so no one could know me. I felt safer if I kept everyone out and only let in the few.

Now, through the humility of my addictions, I am not the same as I was even a few days ago.

Now, I am learning to let people in first and hold judgments until...if ever.

I am still blind. My faith still elusive. But at least I am not alone in this.

freshstart57

Ken, you never were alone on your journey. I hope you find the strength and courage you are looking for.

Weasel1966

Fresh, strength and courage were never lost. Faith and humility were. I have my eye set on where I want to land. It's got a big X on it.

K

Mark75

Thing about faith and trust and all that, it's not an intellectual pursuit, in fact it is kind of anti-intellectual... They way I see it, is that our bottoms happen when we are willing to give up, let go, get out of own way... and begin that journey of trust with nothing more than the promise....

mecanix

Sometimes the suffering i've been through is in proportion to my unwillingness to accept and deal with change .

Bestwishes, M

FreeFall

Mecanix you are very wise!! I once read that if you don't deal with what you need to life has a way of making you deal with it anyway, usually by way of a much harder lesson. I've found that to be very true, both in my life and others.

“When you have come to the edge Of all light that you know And are about to drop off into the darkness Of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or You will be taught to fly”

Weasel, I think faith is supposedly to be elusive-it's your challenge to believe anyway even if there is no tangible evidence

Glad you had a good weekend-your plan is working!

Weasel1966

M.... You said that well.

I layed my ego down. I just got back from a meeting. That alone for me to say is proof.

As you know the net is slowly being untangled.

K

bloss

So good to read your post, you seem more content, grounded in yourself...

Sapling

I thought it was just me...I noticed the same thing.

Weasel1966

Thanks for telling me that. I have promised myself, that at least for the next couple of months, I make no assumptions about myself. I wont have the ability to judge progress if it needs to be judged. I will leave that to others. And you made me feel real good with that!

Thanks!

Sapling

We're always the last ones to know Ken.