bluebelle

My RABF has been doing ok. He is still clean (2 years). He recently increased his recovery efforts after a near-relapse. (Return to stinking thinking.) he is back on subs--I have mixed feeling.

I'm hanging in there. Same days are better than others. He is very moody on the subs. He has been working with a psych doc who requires pee tests.

I'm trying to read and focus in myself (with limited luck). Some days are fine, and other times I'm afraid of everything melting down'

Ideally focused about changing my reactions to his behavior and obsessive thoughts and behaviorals. I'm sure there is a better life out there that right in front of me if I could learn to make it about me. Tks for listening.

Ilovemysonjj

Hi Bluebelle, I think that by you acknowledging your feelings and understanding more about what drives that is a huge step for your recovery. We are not machines, we are human beings. Just wanted to encourage you in your walk forward.
Teresa