Just need to get it out!
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Just need to get it out!
I hate you for putting me through this. I hate you for lying to me for so long that I no longer believe a single word that comes out of your mouth. I hate you for convincing me that things would work out when I know they won’t. I hate that I am incapable of removing you from my life, even though you have basically ruined it. I hate that you make me feel bad for being angry at you even though you completely ****** up. I hate that I am happy to accept the bare minimum from myself. I hate you for not even giving me the bare minimum of yourself. I hate myself for refusing to push you away so that you could find your bottom. I hate myself for letting my kids see that I am not as strong as I thought I was. I hate myself for not even being able to tell you any of this.
I hate you for putting me through this. I hate you for lying to me for so long that I no longer believe a single word that comes out of your mouth. I hate you for convincing me that things would work out when I know they won’t. I hate that I am incapable of removing you from my life, even though you have basically ruined it. I hate that you make me feel bad for being angry at you even though you completely ****** up. I hate that I am happy to accept the bare minimum from myself. I hate you for not even giving me the bare minimum of yourself. I hate myself for refusing to push you away so that you could find your bottom. I hate myself for letting my kids see that I am not as strong as I thought I was. I hate myself for not even being able to tell you any of this.
Sounds like you are getting close to some important action and healing.
Please keep us posted. Katie Hug
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And now we have the opportunity to show our children that adults are not perfect, not even their parents. And we have the opportunity to show them we can grow and learn. That's a way stronger message than "My Mommy is perfect or stongest or etc."
Plus once you survive this, it will show them even when bad things happen, life goes on. And we can move forward.
My daughter has always been so hard on herself. I know seeing that even parents make mistakes and mess up has been huge for her. In the midst of all this I've actually seen her confidence grow. That's one thing I would have never guessed would come out of all this.
Plus once you survive this, it will show them even when bad things happen, life goes on. And we can move forward.
My daughter has always been so hard on herself. I know seeing that even parents make mistakes and mess up has been huge for her. In the midst of all this I've actually seen her confidence grow. That's one thing I would have never guessed would come out of all this.
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I hate you for putting me through this.
I hate you for lying to me for so long that I no longer believe a single word that comes out of your mouth.
I hate you for convincing me that things would work out when I know they won’t.
I hate that I am incapable of removing you from my life, even though you have basically ruined it.
I hate that you make me feel bad for being angry at you even though you completely ****** up.
I hate that I am happy to accept the bare minimum from myself.
I hate you for not even giving me the bare minimum of yourself.
I hate myself for refusing to push you away so that you could find your bottom.
I hate myself for letting my kids see that I am not as strong as I thought I was.
I hate myself for not even being able to tell you any of this.
If you can take the time to work on you, you will find all your answers.
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