4 months down the line...
4 months down the line...
Sometimes I can't quite believe I'm doing it!
But doing it I am.
4 months!!
I was a depressed, emotionally numb drinker. I drank every day and took diazepam on top of that to.... Oh I don't even know why I did that!
I was reckless with my personal safety, I am lucky to be alive quite honestly. Frequent visits to hospital to be stitched up, blackouts every time I drank, relationships on the point of collapse....
What was I doing to myself?
I realise 4 months isn't very long, I've still got a long way to go. But my life now is so far removed from how it was.
Everything is different. No guilt. No shame. No depression. That's the big one-I've been depressed for the longest time. I'm off all anti-anxiety meds now.
Yeah the first few weeks were rough, but every day now I'm learning more about myself. It is a new life. It is worth living. I'm worth it.
Thanks to the help of other alcoholics, I can see a future for the first time. The blackness that surrounded me is lifting.
Thanks to AA and all of you on SR, I have been shown a better way xxx
But doing it I am.
4 months!!
I was a depressed, emotionally numb drinker. I drank every day and took diazepam on top of that to.... Oh I don't even know why I did that!
I was reckless with my personal safety, I am lucky to be alive quite honestly. Frequent visits to hospital to be stitched up, blackouts every time I drank, relationships on the point of collapse....
What was I doing to myself?
I realise 4 months isn't very long, I've still got a long way to go. But my life now is so far removed from how it was.
Everything is different. No guilt. No shame. No depression. That's the big one-I've been depressed for the longest time. I'm off all anti-anxiety meds now.
Yeah the first few weeks were rough, but every day now I'm learning more about myself. It is a new life. It is worth living. I'm worth it.
Thanks to the help of other alcoholics, I can see a future for the first time. The blackness that surrounded me is lifting.
Thanks to AA and all of you on SR, I have been shown a better way xxx
Your story is wonderful. It is amazing how fast we get better. I never want to forget how bad it was because this helps to keep me sober and it gives me gratitude for what I have today
Hey Jeni, I was a listener through those first difficult days of yours, it is inspirational to compare and contrast your posts now and then.
I am so gald for you. You are a jewell to this forum.
Much Love Jim
I am so gald for you. You are a jewell to this forum.
Much Love Jim
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