lillamy

I've been pretty happy with how I've been able to withstand the sometimes solid wall of venom coming from my AXH over the past year. I've gone from sheer terror to "sticks and stones, file under 'for lawyer' and then I go on with my life."

Until this morning.

When I completely and utterly lost it. My argument was solid. The way I made it left a little something to be desired in the way of civility and niceness.

The funny thing was... his response was completely rational. He even acknowledged that what I said made sense. There was almost a half-apology in there. I think my universe just tilted a bit.

And now I need to take a deep breath and get back to my world of "do not engage, do not engage, do not engage." I'm so not proud of myself right now. *sigh*

Titanic

And, for sure, do not get engaged again with him!

MamaKit

You can't be the wise, kind, strong, patient and civil Lilamy all the time!!! You are human and have gone through so much. Something is going to give every once in a while.

I aspire to conduct myself as you do as I proceed through my recovery.

Hugs,
MamaKit

kudzujean

Give yourself grace.

lillamy

I'm actually laughing a bit at myself.
It never fails; every time I pat myself on the back and do a little superior-dance, the Universe gives me a much-needed reminder that humility looks much better on me than pride.