Day 2 - Ready to be off Alcohol for good!
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Day 2 - Ready to be off Alcohol for good!
I like to believe it all started in Grad school, but really it started before then... it just got really bad in Grad school. I started drinking for the wrong reasons - I was lonely, depressed, had trouble sleeping. I was dealing with some heavy ****. But the drinking has always been there. I started drinking when I was 13, I'm 27 now. Drank a LOT in college, and started really problem drinking when I finished college and started working in the restaurant business, drinking to wind down from the night. I used to love drinking, the social elements of it, the fun. I've found that it no longer is serving me. I started to show withdrawal symptoms in Grad school - night sweats, severe anxiety. I have known that I need to quit for a while now... it is at the point that I can not control it anymore. The best analogy I can think of for how I feel about alcohol is like Golum with the ring. When you first get into it it makes you feel so high, so rich so good. But slowly over time it begins to eat away at your soul... until it is all you care about. I have all the warning signs all around me... my mom's side of the family have all struggled with alcohol and drug addiction... I dated a severe alcoholic and watched his and my own cycles of dependency... the time to stop is now. Got real bad night sweats last night, but I'm surrounded by good people who will help encourage recovery... so here's to Day 2!!!
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I got beat up by alcohol in the restaurant business....25 years...It was like going to school to learn how to drink...I got a PHD in it. Be careful detoxing and look into a recovery program...AA saved my butt.
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