It's so nice to be out of my own way...
Powerless over Alcohol
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It's so nice to be out of my own way...
Well good afternoon SR friends and family. 
It is said that alcoholics are people whose drinking got them into a "blind alley". For this alcoholic there this couldnt be more true. I was not able to learn from my drinking experiences. I keep the insanity of it up while always making the same mistakes over and over and expecting a different result. Although I didnt refuse to say I was an alcoholic I did refuse to truly admit that I could not live with out it. I constantly tried to handle it , like so many change drinks, tell myself only 6 or the old just one more. I honestly was scared to death to even think of life without this "friend" that is just killing me . I still dont know how it happened but I woke up and said try it , try being sober for once . So I called someone I knew in AA and started this journey. My god doing for me what I could not do for myself, is what I know now happened.
So today I meditated and prayed for that I can continue to get myself out of the way, so the my god's power may flow in. I pray that I may surrender myself daily to that power. Because I know my way just doesnt work.
This complete change in life,living,thinking, and spirituality is not easy , but compared to the last many years its not only easier but so rewarding on a daily basis. When I think a little of it being tough, I remind myself what I would do to get that bottle, and my answer is I would walk over broken glass to it . So then it always sets in the old saying work at sobriety at least half as hard as I did at drinking.
Enjoy your day all, I know I will.
And Smile cause sobriety looks good on You..!!!!!!!!!
Good love, Inda
It is said that alcoholics are people whose drinking got them into a "blind alley". For this alcoholic there this couldnt be more true. I was not able to learn from my drinking experiences. I keep the insanity of it up while always making the same mistakes over and over and expecting a different result. Although I didnt refuse to say I was an alcoholic I did refuse to truly admit that I could not live with out it. I constantly tried to handle it , like so many change drinks, tell myself only 6 or the old just one more. I honestly was scared to death to even think of life without this "friend" that is just killing me . I still dont know how it happened but I woke up and said try it , try being sober for once . So I called someone I knew in AA and started this journey. My god doing for me what I could not do for myself, is what I know now happened.
So today I meditated and prayed for that I can continue to get myself out of the way, so the my god's power may flow in. I pray that I may surrender myself daily to that power. Because I know my way just doesnt work.
This complete change in life,living,thinking, and spirituality is not easy , but compared to the last many years its not only easier but so rewarding on a daily basis. When I think a little of it being tough, I remind myself what I would do to get that bottle, and my answer is I would walk over broken glass to it . So then it always sets in the old saying work at sobriety at least half as hard as I did at drinking.
Enjoy your day all, I know I will.
And Smile cause sobriety looks good on You..!!!!!!!!!
Good love, Inda
Powerless over Alcohol
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Join Date: May 2011
Location: Trudging the Road to Happy Destiny!
Posts: 4,018
Well of to monday's meeting. And a stop at the market. Got a couple dozen pierogi's orders to fill tonight.. So grateful for this way of living..
Have a great evening all.
Have a great evening all.
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