Calmness...
A simple guy making his way
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
Posts: 7,867
Calmness...
There is something to be said for sitting still in a fast paced place like New York. There's a lot of buzzing going on. Sirens, trucks, those annoying beeps as they move backward. Ah yes... And the trains that are constant in the back ground.
Even though the station is 5 blocks away I can hear the DING of the closing doors sound.
I drank to calm down.
Really? Cuz when I reached a certain point in the "process" I always seemed to get rather excited. So which was it? Drink to calm or drink to party?
Like most I used drinking for everything. Every emotion. Every everything.
I share this because this weekend i am calm.
I cannot say with any certainty what this last week has done for me or to me..... but something is different.
I have been calmer because the constant planning and scheming in my mind as to how to get "it" was simply not there.
I took a drive at my drunk time last night for no reason.
I got up the last two days at 5 am to watch the sunrise over the smog.
Calm is good.
I will take it when I can give it to myself.
Have a happy sober Sunday!
K
Even though the station is 5 blocks away I can hear the DING of the closing doors sound.
I drank to calm down.
Really? Cuz when I reached a certain point in the "process" I always seemed to get rather excited. So which was it? Drink to calm or drink to party?
Like most I used drinking for everything. Every emotion. Every everything.
I share this because this weekend i am calm.
I cannot say with any certainty what this last week has done for me or to me..... but something is different.
I have been calmer because the constant planning and scheming in my mind as to how to get "it" was simply not there.
I took a drive at my drunk time last night for no reason.
I got up the last two days at 5 am to watch the sunrise over the smog.
Calm is good.
I will take it when I can give it to myself.
Have a happy sober Sunday!
K
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
Baton Rouge is were I was born and raised
and lived until I was 7 yrs sober with a little
family and moved to Houston on my then husbands
job. Houston, fast pace, city, city, city.
The 10 yrs i lived there all I could think about
was my hometown of Baton Rouge and how
I missed it and wished I could go home. As you
often hear, becareful for what you wish for because
it can and will come true.
Sure enough my prayers were answered and I
returned to Baton Rouge on a new job, ending
my 25 yr. marriage. Now I can say that I am truely
home, safe, sound, calm, happy, 22 yrs sober,
remarried and AA support connected.
My recovery life today is protected, and will do
what ever I can to keep it simple, calm, and
enjoyable. It took relocating to realize where I
needed to be in my own recovery.
You can too.
and lived until I was 7 yrs sober with a little
family and moved to Houston on my then husbands
job. Houston, fast pace, city, city, city.
The 10 yrs i lived there all I could think about
was my hometown of Baton Rouge and how
I missed it and wished I could go home. As you
often hear, becareful for what you wish for because
it can and will come true.
Sure enough my prayers were answered and I
returned to Baton Rouge on a new job, ending
my 25 yr. marriage. Now I can say that I am truely
home, safe, sound, calm, happy, 22 yrs sober,
remarried and AA support connected.
My recovery life today is protected, and will do
what ever I can to keep it simple, calm, and
enjoyable. It took relocating to realize where I
needed to be in my own recovery.
You can too.
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