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Old 09-18-2012, 10:05 PM
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I'm done walking around thinking the world is out to get me. Being self absorbed and abusive and manipulative. I'm trying to truely give myself to god for the first time. I got down and prayed today for the first time I meant it. Not just the kind of praying where you are just hoping maybe possibly something is listening, I prayed hard and gave everything up. All I hold on to. I am defeated. I said take this please and help me because I cant. I cried. I begged. I just all around surrendered. I humbled. I'm a broken man. Then all of the sudden I had two ants crawling on me. I don't have insects in my house. I felt like it was locusts in the bible. Like I was either about to be punished or perhaps god was about to go to war with the evil inside me. I could live with either. I'm hoping I have more answers tomorrow. Thanks.
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Old 09-18-2012, 10:09 PM
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I can relate I was that man also..

I hope you call your local AA chapter and find the next meeting..
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Old 09-19-2012, 12:52 AM
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Well done. Day 2 for you now
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Old 09-19-2012, 01:00 AM
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Sugarfix. I think that getting to that place is helpful. Surrender leads to a willingness to tolerate discomfort and to work towards change.

I hope things will improve for you
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Old 09-19-2012, 03:13 AM
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I got down and prayed today for the first time I meant it. Not just the kind of praying where you are just hoping maybe possibly something is listening, I prayed hard and gave everything up. All I hold on to. I am defeated.
This is how I ended up in AA....You might want to give it a try.
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