EternalQ

I was thinking of all the "lies" I told myself when I drank. I thought it would be wise for me to remember what that was like. And it might help someone else... . So I will start with one of many I told myself:

I lied when I told myself that I could never, ever, tell anyone that I was addicted to alcohol or I would be unloved and utterly alone.

The truth is: I already FELT unloved and alone. I thought alcohol was my buddy but instead it kept me from all other relationships. Once I admitted it on SR, and then selectively picked key people to tell, I realized that keeping my drinking a secret was what kept me hopeless and helpless for so long. It added years and years to my alcoholism.

The truth is telling people is what gave me a window to see quitting was possible!

What lie did YOU tell yourself when you were drinking? And what is the truth?

mecanix

I thought drinking would make me interesting and funny, it made me dull, boring, obsessed and sweaty.

MrsKing

I lied when I told myself that if I didn't drink, I'd be bored, because the truth is that I've never had so much fun in all my life!

aspired

For me alcohol is like those carnival mirrors that distorts your image, whether it makes you taller, shorter, wider, etc. It made me into something I didn't want to be.

I lied when I thought alcohol made me happy to be around my 'friends'. The truth is my 'friends' are heavy drinkers, so are they my friends, or just people who want to get plastered with me?

doggonecarl

I lied when I told myself I had a drinking problem. The truth is, I had no problem drinking. My problem was quitting.

stairs

I lied when I told myself: that my drinking was due to other people and events, and the stress brought on by them because the truth is:
I just wanted to drink.

Lost3000

Great topic! I have a few off the top of my head...

1. I lied when I told myself that drinking made me popular because the truth is the persons I drank with really didn't care about me or my well-being, they just loved to get drunk too.

2. I lied when I told myself that drinking made me relax because the truth is drinking caused me to have even more anxiety.

3. I lied when I told myself life was boring without boozing because the truth is I didn't even know what life IS, I was so busy obliterating myself from life.

EternalQ

I lied when I told myself I didn't want to quit drinking.
The truth was I didn't want to take responsibilty for my life.

EternalQ

I lied when I told myself it didn't matter if I lost everything in life & it had nothing to do with my drinking.

The truth was: the only thing I needed to lose, was the drinking.

EternalQ

I lied when I told myself that sobriety would make me feel left out.
The truth is:
In sobriety I connect with others more than ever before.
By drinking I was the one who was excluding MYSELF.

Change4good

I lied when I told myself I could consider drinking in moderation. The truth is, it only got worse. It took me a long time to fully realize this, but I have.

Thanks for hanging with me during almost a year (I joined December 11, 2011) of lots of day 1s, and relapses.

BabyJane

Great thread!

I lied when I told myself I was happier getting loaded than I ever was sober. The truth is that I was NUMB and unable to feel happiness when loaded and even though I still feel a but down today, I have experienced true fulfillment and happiness before (in sobriety!) and I will again if I stay on this path.

Angel8

I lied when I told myself that "drinking only affects my life",
because the truth is it was affecting everyone around me negatively
whom I love the most.

quitforme79

I lied when i told myself I would be lonely without drinking because the truth is, i isolate from meaningful relationships when i drink.

kmick0871

I lied when I told myself I could just have a little.. A little turned into the whole bottle... EVERYTIME!!

MidnightBlue

I lied when I told myself: wine will ease my pain, because the truth is: it multiplies my pain after all.

Jeni26

I lied when I told myself I drank because I was depressed.

Actually I was depressed because I drank.

Steelers0789

When i was drinking i always told myself that this is who everyone wants so why not give them that and i told myself that the instant i put that first drink in me i was going to be the life of the party and by the end of the night id be going home with the best looking girl because i was the man and all of those things are complete and utter BS i built up a fantasy in my head and it was never what really went on but my head and thoughts completely made me believe it was and in the end i wound up drinking alone on a daily basis

Jen31

I lied when I told myself I had to have a good buzz just to leave the house and do things; when the truth is, everything is so much more beautiful and enjoying when I'm sober and coherent.

EternalQ

I lied when I told myself: I could never quit, and would just have to live with my alcohol dependence....
The truth is: what I was doing was not living, it was dying.