what is the f-ing point
I looked like that holdin beer
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what is the f-ing point
Well, sorry guys. I was doing great, and still no booze, but was on DXM the one night and cid the next, followed by ******* crack. Perhaps I thought I could handle life straight, but maybe not? I feel like giving up. Maybe I can do life better ****** up? The walls are closing in on me and I am alone. Everyone says life will be better, but it is not!!!!
Hugs xI looked like that holdin beer
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Oh my ******* god, do you think I can pay for a doc--lol!!!
Baby, please.
parents or support? My pop is dead, and I have not talked to my mum in 5 years. My BF is on tour for now(I find out) 9 more weeks.
I am in a new town, in an empty house alone.
Look, I will deal with this, TY
Baby, please.
parents or support? My pop is dead, and I have not talked to my mum in 5 years. My BF is on tour for now(I find out) 9 more weeks.
I am in a new town, in an empty house alone.
Look, I will deal with this, TY
I looked like that holdin beer
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I am truly sorry to be such a mess. I really do not know what to do. I do not know how or where to get any help. It is weird because with each passing day, I kind of know how much deeper i am into the craziness, and I really want to change this, but I do not know how-- today
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I'm sorry to hear that too MC.
I think you already know what the point is - go back and read some of your posts - see how together you were getting, how much progress you made.
That's the real you - don't listen to what your head is telling you right now.
All the progress is still there, you haven't lost anything you learned...unless you decide to throw it away.
I think we have to be very careful of the company we keep too - there's a lot of pitfalls around, everywhere, for people early in recovery.
I know it's a cliche? but stick with the winners MC
as for Drs - there are free or low cost clinics everywhere...it's got to be worth looking to see if there's anything near you....
Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
2-1-1 Call Center Search
Getting clean and sober is hard - staying that way is even harder still - but I believe in you MC. You can do this
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I think you already know what the point is - go back and read some of your posts - see how together you were getting, how much progress you made.
That's the real you - don't listen to what your head is telling you right now.
All the progress is still there, you haven't lost anything you learned...unless you decide to throw it away.
I think we have to be very careful of the company we keep too - there's a lot of pitfalls around, everywhere, for people early in recovery.
I know it's a cliche? but stick with the winners MC
as for Drs - there are free or low cost clinics everywhere...it's got to be worth looking to see if there's anything near you....
Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
2-1-1 Call Center Search
Getting clean and sober is hard - staying that way is even harder still - but I believe in you MC. You can do this
D
I looked like that holdin beer
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Join Date: Jun 2012
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Look, **** it! seriously. I am getting older- I am 27 years old. I will have to make my own way. There is no help in the USA with what I can afford at this point, so I will get by somehow. It is what it is.
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all we can do is offer you suggestions MC - we're doing our best...don't bite our heads off, OK?
There's a lot of clinics on that first link - it will take you a while to go through and find all the Tampa ones...a lot of them say they never turn anyone away for inability to pay....
you could try this link as well - it's off the second link
Crisis Center of Tampa Bay
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There's a lot of clinics on that first link - it will take you a while to go through and find all the Tampa ones...a lot of them say they never turn anyone away for inability to pay....
you could try this link as well - it's off the second link
Crisis Center of Tampa Bay
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I looked like that holdin beer
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Join Date: Jun 2012
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Look, I appreciate your advice and I know you mean well, but it is not going to help here-Ty though.
A pat on the back for doing well is not going to work great as well, and telling a person without good insurance to go to the doc is meaningless.
Look, lemme just figure this for myself, TY again for the advice---I will do this on my own.
A pat on the back for doing well is not going to work great as well, and telling a person without good insurance to go to the doc is meaningless.
Look, lemme just figure this for myself, TY again for the advice---I will do this on my own.
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