TiTi1

Hi all. This is my first time posting and I'm scared to death. I have been a heavy drinker for most of my life and I finally admitted to myself last night that I am an alcoholic and need help. This weekend while visiting my parents with my husband I drank so much vodka I blacked out, walked to the neighbors house and asked to come inside, at midnight. The family was sleeping and their little girl was having a sleepover at the time. I remember nothing. As if that wasn't enough, the very next day I slammed vodka straight out of the bottle while my family was enjoying the beautiful day outside. I was inside, skulking around the kitchen slamming booze. Got hammered again. That's when it hit me I have a very serious problem. I am going to go to an AA meeting with a friend and have scheduled a Dr. Appt. so I can talk to my Dr. about my situation as well. I am also a victim of sexual, physical and emotional abuse and suffer from depression and PTSD. I have a very long road ahead of me and would really love some support. I can't remember the last time I was sober longer than a week. Thank you all for listening....

Vall

Dear TiTi1,

I have not been on SR long so do not feel I can give you any profound advice but I can tell you that you will get a lot of support here to guide you through.

You have taken the first steps which takes courage and determination. I am sure you will find your way through.

All the best and hope to read your steps to recovery over the coming weeks.

You are not alone. x

pipparina

TiTi-

Congratulations on taking the first step. Your post is classic "Admitted we were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable".

I'm glad you are going to a meeting. AA really helped me get sober and stay sober. Keep reaching out here too. There are wonderful people here who have been exactly where you are now.

All of us sharing our experience, strength and hope helps make sobriety easier!

hypochondriac

Welcome to SR Titi You'll find lots of support here x

Caledonia1

Welcome, I am also new here and this is a fantastic place for support and tips on how to stay sober.
Congratulations on taking the first steps to recovery!

Hevyn

Hi TiTi - We're so glad you're here with us. This is a wonderful place for support, encouragement, and hope. I was lost until I found my friends here. No one else in my life understood how I felt.

I did the same kind of thing you described. I never believed it when people told me things I'd said or done. Alcohol turned me into a person I didn't even recognize, and it was getting dangerous - not just embarrassing.

Good job on making that appointment with your doctor. Planning to attend a meeting sounds like a wise idea. You can reclaim your life - everything will get better.

Impurrfect

((TiTi)) - Welcome to SR!

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

TiTi1

I feel so supported already. My husband doesn't drink and doesn't understand addiction to alcohol. It's very frustrating. I feel very alone! I am taking it hour by hour. That's all I can do. Thanks again, you guys are great.