Kath76

Usually I drink quitely at home so I can't get into trouble but no this time I thought I could control myself and went out in public, who was I kidding. Totally wiped myself out then woke up feeling embarrased, guilty (even though I don't remember most of it).Then I was angry again at myself and swore off the drink again, I have lost count of how many times I've said that to myself. I think back over the years and so many times I have woken up feeling like this yet once again here I am. First day after the monster hangover I thought maybe one drink won't make me want 20 but no I moved my access to the alcohol from the house to the shed. Then I had to face some of the people from my big night and guilt rushed through me. Got home and thought just one drink to stop me thinking what an idiot I've been.

I've made it 4 very long days now without a drink and have decided to tell my family that my goal is to stop, I hope that sharing my problem with others might help me from failing myself. Now to prove to them and mainly myself the real person I am not the person who stoped living because I was counting down to my next drink.

sugarbear1

You can do this!!!!

pipparina

Kath
Good decision to stop. Do you have any ideas on how you will stay stopped? Perhaps AA meetings or one of the nonAA programs? It is much tougher to stay away from alcohol without support

bbthumper

Sounds like you have taken a first step. Not an easy thing to do. So the question is what do you do with that knowledge? I recommend moving from the problem (step 1) to the solution (2-12)
Do you attend AA meetings?

MichealKors

WOW Kath.... your story sounds just like mine.
BBThumper seems to have the right answer..... 2-12 time for a solution.
I cant keep doing this to myself, my family and my dogs (yep them too)
but mostly I just want my life back .... I used to LOVE living.... I want that back!

CarolD

MichealKors...

Welcome to SR...many of us are winning over addiction
and so can you...please keep reading and posting