I Was So Sad But Cried Instead Of Drank
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I Was So Sad But Cried Instead Of Drank
I know I"m on here too much. But i was talking to my mom this morning and she barely was able. But we talked old times. I got the shakes I wanted a drink so bad. I''m shaking now. It's not DT, emotions. i'm hurting in my heart but that's life, don't numb it. The point of this post is I don't want to be alone. PS Its ok I'm thinking of a joke.
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You're not alone Fitz. You never are.
I was just thinking recently about the fact that I used to never cry. Never.
I wouldn't call myself a crier today but I am able to feel sad and cry and get through it now. Feeling emotions fully isn't always fun but I think it's necessary.
I'm proud of myself for that. I'm proud you too.
I was just thinking recently about the fact that I used to never cry. Never.
I wouldn't call myself a crier today but I am able to feel sad and cry and get through it now. Feeling emotions fully isn't always fun but I think it's necessary.
I'm proud of myself for that. I'm proud you too.
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I believe it is very important not to supress your emotions as that can manifest itself into physical problems. I used to hide my emotions and had ulcers and other issues that would flare up on a regular basis.
I was in the same situation as you, Fitz.... My dear mother spent her last 5 years fighting a battle with ALS (Lou Gehrigs disease). It was heartbreaking to watch her lose her ability to speak, walk and eat. I would stop by to visit several times a week to help her full time caregiver and spend time with her.
We would joke around and I could always get her to laugh and smile. When I would leave, I would cry all the way home (a 45 min drive). Unfortunately, I would start downing beers to medicate my feelings and all that did was extend the sadness and create other problems for me.
Your Mom needs you, so continue to be strong for her...... and you.
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I was in the same situation as you, Fitz.... My dear mother spent her last 5 years fighting a battle with ALS (Lou Gehrigs disease). It was heartbreaking to watch her lose her ability to speak, walk and eat. I would stop by to visit several times a week to help her full time caregiver and spend time with her.
We would joke around and I could always get her to laugh and smile. When I would leave, I would cry all the way home (a 45 min drive). Unfortunately, I would start downing beers to medicate my feelings and all that did was extend the sadness and create other problems for me.
Your Mom needs you, so continue to be strong for her...... and you.
Best Wishes
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What I have learned is that it is okay to cry. I used to think it was a sign of weakness (old way of thinking). Today I am a crier. I cry when I am sad, when I am happy, and when I am so full of emotions.
You are never alone. We are here at all hours!
You are never alone. We are here at all hours!
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You are never alone here Fitz.
Crying was a new emotion for me when I quit drinking. Well apart from drunken tears of course, but they don't count.
Reckon crying is not only ok, but necessary.
You're doing great x
Crying was a new emotion for me when I quit drinking. Well apart from drunken tears of course, but they don't count.
Reckon crying is not only ok, but necessary.
You're doing great x
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((Fitz)) - You are human, things hurt and we express our pain by crying or whatever works (NOT the alcohol or drugs).
I don't think you are posting too much. What you go through may very well help another person going through something similar.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
I don't think you are posting too much. What you go through may very well help another person going through something similar.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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Hey Fitz, I don't think you are posting too much. i think you are just reaching out. Wish I could do what you are doing. Damn I almost had a year, should I say about 11 months, then I got lonely, instead of reaching out here, I reached for a beer. So now I am back to day zero, and did this for the last at least month and a half.
Why?????????????????? stupidity. I always knew that I could have came here for love and understanding. Just wanted, I guess, to beat myself up some more.
You're doing good, even though I have been a lurker here recently, I still look for you. You brighten up my day. Thank you for all of the encouraging things you posted
Why?????????????????? stupidity. I always knew that I could have came here for love and understanding. Just wanted, I guess, to beat myself up some more.
You're doing good, even though I have been a lurker here recently, I still look for you. You brighten up my day. Thank you for all of the encouraging things you posted
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you guys are beauttiful. So I fell asleep today, I hadn't been sleeping and had a dream. I rolled over to hold my partner. I didn't have one and hit the floor. I laughed so hard I cried. That's good too.
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I also have a partner that I hold each and every night. Didn't usually have one. It's called the other pillow. I may toss and turn, but the other pillow is still there to keep me on the bed. Keep on keeping on
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No such thing as being here too much, Fitz. We love you and are glad when you share your feelings. I'm going through the same thing with my mom, too. I'm glad we're sober to handle it instead of numbing ourselves.
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