fallenangel1983

I dont know where to start so i guess i will start with august 16 2012 i lost my dad his addictions won and he was realeased from the hands of the devil and sent back to god. i myself have been clean for 4 yrs as of the 17th of august. my dad and i were very close i have not seen him in seven years though and the day before he had his accident ( we will call it that) i had spoke with him and he thought i was angry with him because the last time we talked he had been drinking. my dad was addicted to alcohol and drugs he was 60 yrs old and had gone to treatment several time but it never lasted i love my dad and i dont know how to deal with all the issues that are left i have so many questions about that day... did he know what he was doing? did he know he had taken it to far? we know he tried to call 911 three times but he kept hitting 913 my dad ment so much to me he was my rock he knew all the right things to say and when to say them he always told me he was so proud of me and my sobriety i just wish i could hear his voice one last time this is not how it was supposed to end! he was going to try treatment one last time and maybe he would have made it maybe just maybe

Mracoa

Hang in there. The grief of losing a parent is hard enough when alcholoism isn't involved.

bryangt

Thank you for being brave and sharing that--it was heartfelt. The fact that you are clean & sober is & will be a living & loving testimony to your father. I pray you will heal from this and continue to live a rewarding life. God Bless You!

OhBoy

Sorry for your loss. It was hard when my Dad passed a couple years ago. He was sober about 25 years before he died, but it was liver cancer that took him so I guess it eventually caught up with him. What got me through was taking care of myself. I wanted answers & wanted them fast about my feelings with his death. They didn't come that way, but as time went on, more was revealed. My HP gives me what I need when I'm ready. Remember you were not in control of your Dads addictions, your were not responsible for them. You ARE responsible for taking care of yourself though. Thank you for your post, stay strong.
OhBoy

fallenangel1983

Thank you everyone... i am trying my best to stay strong not only for myself but my two beautiful and amazing kids they remind me life it precious and i know my dad is looking down on me and i know hes proud of me and all that i have gone through. my childhood was not an easy one and having my daughter at a young age and her living life with me while i was an active user was something i never thought i would put my child through and last year i had my son three months early and that was a hard situation. i have had a little bit of a tough go so today i am still clean for me and my kids and i know all that i have done and will continue to do in my life will make my dad proud! and because of him i have learned so many things in life he was really a great guy and i miss him from the bottom of my heart!
and no matter what life throws my way drugs are my past and though i will remember those days i will never relive them because i know i am stong and i can get through anything that comes my way as long as i have a clear mind and know what i want in the future!

Seren

Hello fallenangel, I'm just so very sorry to hear about the loss of your Dad. What a terrible tragedy!!

Your Dad, you, and your whole family will be in my prayers.

Tuffgirl

Prayers to you and your family - it is a terrible loss to lose a parent. Take good care!

Impurrfect

((fallenangel)) - I'm so sorry about your dad. I'm sure he is looking down on you with a lot of pride. It hurts when we want answers and we want them NOW. I found, as said above, more is revealed over time and others...well, I guess I'll get my answers when we meet again.

Lots of hugs and prayers to you, your kids and all who loved your dad,

Amy

Ann

I too am so very sorry at the loss of your dad. It is so sad how the disease of alcoholism reaches each person in the family and all who love them.

Your sobriety is a living testament that this disease can be beaten, so keep shining your light that others, perhaps like your father, will see this and follow in a better path.

Hugs

Dee74

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking to see another life lost to this disease.

I'm very pleased to hear you're 4 years sober tho - I reckon your Dad is very proud of you too.

Welcome to SR fallenangel1983...you'll find a lot of support and wisdom here
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