BobbyJ

Ever since I saw my XAH for the first time in almost 2 year's, this week.
I have been thinking about this- What does he really have to offer me?

Yes, for once in my life "ME"

He could offer me:
1. Sex - you know. the cheap kind. no love. vegas style
2. Companionship - my dog's are more loyal & smile way more
3. Haunting Memories - can rent a steven king dvd
4. Fear - i can chash car's in the middle of the night
5. Sadness - another dvd rental

He can't offer me:
1. Respect
2. Emotional/Mental Support
3. Financial Support
4. Physical Love
5. Trust
6. Happiness
7. Stability
8. Compliments
9. Honesty
10. Honor
11. Sex Appeal
12. A partner to walk beside me in life. He will alway's be behind me. *More than likely I would be draggin' him by his shirt tail to have him even empty the trash on Monday mornings.

My list in my journal is "WAY" longer than this.
But you get the point.
Just for sheet's and giggle's write a list.
It may surprise you...

He's the Same: as he ever was!..........

Cyranoak

You scared me there for a second. Whew! Nice to see this type of logic and reason employed on this board. Nicely done!



Cyranoak

Tuffgirl

I too had a momentary WTF reaction when I read the title - good one BobbyJ.

ZiggyB

That's a good list.... perhaps I will make one of my own. :-)

BobbyJ

Sorry Guy's - did not make try to freak you out!

But honestly - As I've sat here like a puppy dog waiting to see his face again
In all hopes of seeing huge changes in him. I lived on a glimmer of "hope"

I hoped, that after 2 rehabs and 9 million day's of AA - I would of seen a new
man. One that was ready to take on the world, well atleast bite at it..

Not to say - I would take him back - but there honestly was a hairline thought

This visit - Ended my fear. Gave me courage. Opened up my eye's

This week, has been the best I have felt in 17 year's or more!

I can go on in life and be ME - It's a wonderful thing to figure out
what I like and who I am and what I love to do.
No more abuse, No more sad stories, No more excuses!
LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!

My cheek's hurt from smiling and laughing so much.
Yeah, try cartwheel's at 50. It will make anyone laugh! *Snicker*

I am so damn-free - I can't even express it all in word's - The cloud has lifted!

Now, just gotta figure out what I'm gonna be wearing in Vegas