6 days sober...
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6 days sober...
Hullo all.I am 6 days sober and feeling like crap.Am pumped full of Valium and Vitamin B after going to my doctor who met with the detox doctor and nurse to discuss a plan for me ,but for some reason the craving is way worse than it was yesterday.
It's doing my head in.
It's doing my head in.
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Thank you!
I went from drinking a bottle of wine once a week on a Friday.....to a 3 bottles of wine on the Friday and now both Sat and Sundays....to drinking every night a bottle of wine...to drinking 2 bottles of wine every night every god dam day 7 days a week....to at 39 years old self harming myself which I had never ever done in my life....I was not getting the buzz any more from the wine and so I slashed my thigh and arm.
I didnt want to die,nor did I want attention as I had ample that with the spot light being on me for my drinking lol..I simply wanted the rush/buzz that the wine wasnt given me anymore,and cutting worked for oh um 5 seconds.
I knew when I looked down at all the blood up the wall and on the floor in the bathroom I knew I had hit my rock bottom.
I went from drinking a bottle of wine once a week on a Friday.....to a 3 bottles of wine on the Friday and now both Sat and Sundays....to drinking every night a bottle of wine...to drinking 2 bottles of wine every night every god dam day 7 days a week....to at 39 years old self harming myself which I had never ever done in my life....I was not getting the buzz any more from the wine and so I slashed my thigh and arm.
I didnt want to die,nor did I want attention as I had ample that with the spot light being on me for my drinking lol..I simply wanted the rush/buzz that the wine wasnt given me anymore,and cutting worked for oh um 5 seconds.
I knew when I looked down at all the blood up the wall and on the floor in the bathroom I knew I had hit my rock bottom.
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Thank you blueshades. I watched a doco on you tube called 'Tears in my heart' about alcoholism and it drove home alot of things for me and my addiction.
I never drank any alcohol until I had a Gastric Bypass 4 years ago (I figure I was to busy eating lol to have any time to drink lol)
And only NOW the information regarding bypass patients and alcohol abuse has hit New Zealand and not what I thought it was (cross addiction-trading one addiction for another) but the level of endorphins that unable to over eat took away from me after the bypass and drinking gave me.
I never drank any alcohol until I had a Gastric Bypass 4 years ago (I figure I was to busy eating lol to have any time to drink lol)
And only NOW the information regarding bypass patients and alcohol abuse has hit New Zealand and not what I thought it was (cross addiction-trading one addiction for another) but the level of endorphins that unable to over eat took away from me after the bypass and drinking gave me.
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I am going into the Detox unit as an out patient today as I can not afford to loose my job so will be an out patient.
Day 7 feels so far at 7.49am pretty good,does feel kind of strange to not be still drunk when I wake up and make the childrens lunches for school!
Have got the jittery leg thing happening and ticks happening on my face still.
The lack of energy is also driving me mad,I could sleep for days and days and still feel tired.
Day 7 feels so far at 7.49am pretty good,does feel kind of strange to not be still drunk when I wake up and make the childrens lunches for school!
Have got the jittery leg thing happening and ticks happening on my face still.
The lack of energy is also driving me mad,I could sleep for days and days and still feel tired.
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Thank you all for the well wishes.
Can anyone tell me if sleeping the amount I am doing is normal?...Go to bed at approx 10pm....sleep till 7am....get kids/partner off to work and school...back in bed by 8.30am and wake up at 1pm to go to work.
I have ZERO energy to do anything.
Can anyone tell me if sleeping the amount I am doing is normal?...Go to bed at approx 10pm....sleep till 7am....get kids/partner off to work and school...back in bed by 8.30am and wake up at 1pm to go to work.
I have ZERO energy to do anything.
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Some of us couldn;t sleep at all, so I think you're doing pretty well on that score 
give your mind and body time to adjust and replenish themselves...try and remain patient...most of us find our energy returning soon enough
D
give your mind and body time to adjust and replenish themselves...try and remain patient...most of us find our energy returning soon enough
D
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Hi whathappensnow,
I slept nearly every hour i was'nt going to work for about a month after managing to quit. I guess all those nights , weeks & years of passing out at around midnight and getting up at 5 am pouring coffee down my throat caught up with me .
Bestwishes, M
I slept nearly every hour i was'nt going to work for about a month after managing to quit. I guess all those nights , weeks & years of passing out at around midnight and getting up at 5 am pouring coffee down my throat caught up with me .
Bestwishes, M
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Well I failed,not even sure how many days sober I made it to,but today I drank.
The craving was the worst it has ever been,was counting on my script being filled for the drug to stop the cravings but alas the chemist did not have it in stock till tomorrow morning.
Husband is highly disappointed in me me not so much.
Had one bottle instead of my usual 2.
The craving was the worst it has ever been,was counting on my script being filled for the drug to stop the cravings but alas the chemist did not have it in stock till tomorrow morning.
Husband is highly disappointed in me me not so much.
Had one bottle instead of my usual 2.
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Please Google and read AA's "The Doctors Opinion", "How It Works" and "The Promises of Alcoholics Anonymous". See if you can identify with those documents...
The 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous saved my life, quitting drinking was only the beginning. I couldn't do it alone.
I wish you the best.
Bob R
The 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous saved my life, quitting drinking was only the beginning. I couldn't do it alone.
I wish you the best.
Bob R
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Originally Posted by whathappensnow 
Well I failed,not even sure how many days sober I made it to,but today I drank.
The craving was the worst it has ever been,was counting on my script being filled for the drug to stop the cravings but alas the chemist did not have it in stock till tomorrow morning.
Husband is highly disappointed in me me not so much.
Had one bottle instead of my usual 2.
The craving was the worst it has ever been,was counting on my script being filled for the drug to stop the cravings but alas the chemist did not have it in stock till tomorrow morning.
Husband is highly disappointed in me me not so much.
Had one bottle instead of my usual 2.
Keep sharing with us here.
Best,
~b
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