Weasel1966

When I got my first apartment some 27 years ago I decided that it needed some color. So I started collecting very cool and colorful thick, hand blown glass bottles. Not big maybe 5 inches tall. They have been hidden away for over 5 long drunk years.

My partner is trying to remain abstinent at the same time. We got in this together and we want out together.

I see where he is at today. I have been there many times. I feel I am a little more self aware so I decided to unplug from him today.

My energy is my own and not negotiable.

He is depressed because we will not be doing the normal things but rather breaking those bonds with our drinking times and habits.

So while he lays in a dark room in the air conditioning trying to sleep or mope away the tough spots in this process I took the time to nurture myself.

I dug out those bottles. Cleaned them up. And made room for them in a spot I can enjoy them once again.

They remind me of my many lives.

That's something I find comforting. That I have had many lives. Time periods that filled the needs of the moment.

So this is one now. Change is not inevitable no matter what people say. I need to make change happen for me in this life.

Its going to take some strength to stand alone today. But so be it. I have my SR family to stand with.

My partner and I will stand again when he's feeling better. And he will.

RobbyRobot

Good to hear, Ken. Thanks for the share. For a second, your thread title caused some drama, heh heh. You a funny guy, eh?!!

love ya.

aeo1313

I always enjoy reading your posts...

Weasel1966

Thank you Robby and aeo!

I want what I want today and nothing is going to shake or shift me. I have so much more hidden away that I will leave for days just like this. When I need a boost!

MrsKing

Good for you

Someguy23

Your title gave me a little start, bad weasel

My dad has a short and stout hand-blown blue bottle with ridges along its side, a souvenir from his trip to Venice. I always liked it a lot, you made me think of it.

Weasel1966

Some guy... Three of my bottles are a deep beautiful blue. Others green and mixed colors.

Glad you got something positive from my post. I had a lot of emotions dusting off the past. Good ones though.

Ken

ReadyAndAble

Thanks for that, Ken. That resonates very strongly for me at the moment. I will enjoy letting that bounce around in my head today.

About the headline: be gentle, friend. Jokes about fires don't always play well in the burn unit...

Weasel1966

RAA.... Point taken. No offense intended. But we read about so many real issues here. Deadly real.

A positive post under any guise can only lead to a pleasant surprise.

Ken

sissy07

Weasel,

Your title frightened me! I am so glad everything is alright - infact, it sounds llike they are more than alright. Your post helped me, as it reminded me of things I have yet to rediscover in my rubbermaid containers that are stored....hmmm. I should check those out sometime soon! Thanks for the thoughtful post.

Weasel1966

Sissy.... My mom used to sell rubbermaid. Hearing that beings back memories as well. Good ones.

Did you sell them?

Sorry for the negative title. I had no idea that was not right to do.

Glad you found something positive. I feel good today. And damn happy for it.

freshstart57

Ken, I am happily in the ranks of the relieved readers of this thread, because my first thought was an almost audible 'Oh NOOOOoooooooooo'.

I had that feeling too, about one life being left behind and a new one just begun, fresh and new. How do you think I chose my username? I am pleased to hear you are so well and happy to say it. I hope John feels better soon.
Making new memories and associations is an important part of my sobriety. There are plenty normal things that normal folks do that don't need a cocktail. Maybe you two can start making your new normal.

Weasel1966

Fresh and new stood out for me.

I heard your message... Loud and clear. Yes today is a day we forge new land.

But fresh and new? Hmmmmm...

OnLy thing in my life that has caused pain is my passiveness. I accept what comes my way.

I don't grab it.

And for an relatively agressive person that's a dichotomy I don't get.

But I have Learned that to recover. Be abstinent. Have sobriety. I need to grab it.

Today I did. While in conflict with my love. I did. That's fing scary.

Thanks for the support. I need it today.

Ken

Hevyn

Here's hoping your partner will feel better soon. Glad he has you for comfort and wisdom.

Yes, polish up those bottles until they sparkle, and let the sun shine through them. A nice reminder that you are healing. I have things that need unearthing, too (even after being sober quite awhile). Time to let everything see the light of day.

NoFireWater

Weasel, it has to be twice as hard to do this along with someone else. On one hand, you have their support on a good day. On the other, when it's rough riding for them it must be hard not to get dragged along down. I applaud your decision to let your partner deal in their own way, while still continuing on a positive path. Your bottle collection sounds very cool! The funny thing was when I read your title my first thought was "bummer" but my immediate thought after that was "I bet he didn't" so your determination has shown through here for sure

Live2Run25

I think this is great Ken!!

Weasel1966

Made it through my day. My partner came around. we had fun in the evening.

Thanks for the support yesterday!!!

Sundays are the absolute worst for me.

I wish I felt better today. I was sober and would think I would be up but not the case. Oh well... let it ride. Have a big work morning to deal with.

I will be on SR all day. I need to read more.

Again sorry for the title.

Hevyn

Yay Ken and partner. Challenging times, but you're going to make it through.