A journey realized
A simple guy making his way
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
Posts: 7,867
A journey realized
It's Saturday evening and my AV is doing what it does best.
Even just a few weeks ago this would have presented itself as an insurmountable thought that would require actions. Then Come here Monday with my head in my hands and a heavy heart.
But that's not the case anymore. I don't fear the weekends like I did.
I savor them.
I followed much of the advice I have learned from people here.
I put a plan together.
I think smaller.
I share more.
I am willing to forgive myself and have about a great many things.
I realize now that All previous attempts were half hearted.
I still test myself by dreaming of being able to moderate. I know I cannot. More important I accept I cannot.
I have also learned when my peak times are and look forward to being able to say no to my AV. With each small victory I go from winning the battle to winning the war.
Tonight is a clear victory for me. And I am grateful for it.
So what's the next step in my journey?
Well let me tell you.
I have no idea!
Keep learning I suppose.
Keep living my best life.
Come up with new ideas to spend my abundant time. I am certain sober minutes are twice as long as drunk minutes.
Thanks for being there tonight for me!
Even just a few weeks ago this would have presented itself as an insurmountable thought that would require actions. Then Come here Monday with my head in my hands and a heavy heart.
But that's not the case anymore. I don't fear the weekends like I did.
I savor them.
I followed much of the advice I have learned from people here.
I put a plan together.
I think smaller.
I share more.
I am willing to forgive myself and have about a great many things.
I realize now that All previous attempts were half hearted.
I still test myself by dreaming of being able to moderate. I know I cannot. More important I accept I cannot.
I have also learned when my peak times are and look forward to being able to say no to my AV. With each small victory I go from winning the battle to winning the war.
Tonight is a clear victory for me. And I am grateful for it.
So what's the next step in my journey?
Well let me tell you.
I have no idea!
Keep learning I suppose.
Keep living my best life.
Come up with new ideas to spend my abundant time. I am certain sober minutes are twice as long as drunk minutes.
Thanks for being there tonight for me!
A simple guy making his way
Thread Starter
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
Posts: 7,867
Fresh... This post kind of sounds like its solved. By no means is it. It is at a point I can exercise a bit more over it than ever before.
I feel good when I say no and get up the next day. The feeling is so much better than I used to feel everyday.
I feel good when I say no and get up the next day. The feeling is so much better than I used to feel everyday.
Self recovered Self discovered
Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Toronto Canada
Posts: 5,148
I get that we learn, make new associations, and think in different directions after getting sober, and it is a journey. I only wanted to assure you that you have friends here on SR tonight.
I agree with DebSam - I think you are getting it. Waking up clear headed and empowered is a great way to start any day.
I agree with DebSam - I think you are getting it. Waking up clear headed and empowered is a great way to start any day.
That bell or bike person
Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: london
Posts: 4,978
Come up with new ideas to spend my abundant time. I am certain sober minutes are twice as long as drunk minutes.
I'm not scarred of death but it does make me want to enjoy the texture and feel of this sober reality in the time left, all the more .
Bestwishes, M
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