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So, I got a text from my xah that he would like to see my son after a 2.5 month absence. No apology. I ignored him. He texted me again. I responded with a date and check your email (legally I had to) and he was so cocky and unapologetic I was floored. I set strong boundries with him and feel confident.

Tonightt I get a text from his mama asking if we could talk. She dismissed me way back in march. Sent her an emai, she ignored it. She allowed her sons ***** into the picture and toally told me she wasn't sure if her son was addicted. Meanwhile, she was blinded by everything he had done to us...like leave us starve. So, now she wants to talk. I told her I want nothing to do with someone who doesn't accept his addiction AND allows his ***** into family stuff...while my son and I are dismissed.

I even had creditors start to call me this week. I guess the summer of silence is over. Hmmm...and I was depressed this summer over the MIA addict because why?

I'm just pissed. It never ends. I'm done with flight or fight. I'm done with anxiety. I'm done with depression. I'm done with anger. Will I be all of these things at some point, yes. I'm pissed right now. BUT, I wil not let it consume me anymore. I am on that track. Not 100% there, but on that track. It is all how you deal with it. I am fired up now, but I know I can't live like this for the rest of my life. When I feel this way I start to think about good things and love. I was at the park today with my son and pushing him on the swings. He was laughing and it was so dear. I thought, wow, I have everything I will ever need.

Ann

Wow, your recovery is shining girl! When you can't change your circumstance, change your attitude and an attitude of gratitude will see you through all the bad days. Indeed you do have everything you need and all is well.

Hugs and Hugs

FindingErica

((hugs)) Story! You are being so strong and focusing on what is important!

Kindeyes

What a beautiful snapshot of clarity.

gentle hugs
ke