I NEED a drink!
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I NEED a drink!
In a couple of days we will have no choice but to put down Tony. The best dog I've ever known. He belonged to my parents and has been living with my brother after my parents passed away. He's lived a good and long life but has gotten very sick and has taken a turn for the worse in the last couple of days. I never thought that it would be this hard. I wish I could just get drunk enough to not remember the next few days, but I won't because eventually I will remember again and continue drinking. Today is day 79 sober for me and I'm not going to throw that away, considering that its the longest I've been sober willingly. But I sure have been thinking about it lately.
I am sorry to hear about your dog. It will be hard to euthanize him, but in the end you know that it is the humane thing to do. You will still have your memories of him.
Please remember, you don't NEED a drink. Was sad to see this as the title, but perked up when I read the rest of your post. With 79 days sober, do you really, really want a drink, which will lead to another, and another and another until you can't drink any more and wake up the next morning, maybe remembering what happened, maybe not? Feeling like $**t from a hangover and the disappointment of having to start all over in your sobriety?
Sorry about Tony.
Take good care of yourself. The feelings of sadness will wash over you much better when you're sober than if you're drunk. Tony deserves your genuine feelings.
Please remember, you don't NEED a drink. Was sad to see this as the title, but perked up when I read the rest of your post. With 79 days sober, do you really, really want a drink, which will lead to another, and another and another until you can't drink any more and wake up the next morning, maybe remembering what happened, maybe not? Feeling like $**t from a hangover and the disappointment of having to start all over in your sobriety?
Sorry about Tony.
Take good care of yourself. The feelings of sadness will wash over you much better when you're sober than if you're drunk. Tony deserves your genuine feelings.
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Hello chiyo:
Sorry to hear about your pooch. I've had many pets over the years and loved them all.
Congrats on your 79 days !! I was at the Kingsville meeting this morning. I'd love to meet you sometime.
All the best.
Bob R
Sorry to hear about your pooch. I've had many pets over the years and loved them all.
Congrats on your 79 days !! I was at the Kingsville meeting this morning. I'd love to meet you sometime.
All the best.
Bob R
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Sorry to hear. That is so hard, I am one of those that had many animals over my lifetime. I miss some still as often as any of my family.
But you got it, the drink will only temporaly put all those feeling on the self. And you dog wouldnt want you to go thru that again.
Congrats on your time, here's to day 80.
But you got it, the drink will only temporaly put all those feeling on the self. And you dog wouldnt want you to go thru that again.
Congrats on your time, here's to day 80.
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If you decided to stop drinking then there is no exclude you can use to just drink once, because you can use that for anything. Anyway, taking in the death of your dog is real and is something you need to deal. Yes it's hard but life is hard sometimes and if/when you get throw this you will be stronger because of it.
Sorry about your death, I have an 8 year old dog too so I can understand how you feel.
Sorry about your death, I have an 8 year old dog too so I can understand how you feel.
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We had to put our 17 year old Rat Terrier down about 9 months ago. I am actually still tearing up as I type this as she was truly a family member and a huge part of our 18 year marriage. We never had kids so she was it. : )
It was very hard but had to be done and HAD TO BE DONE SOBER. Tony deserves your full attention, your true self, your sober and real support through the challenging time.
We spent probably 10 minutes with our pet after she was gone just remembering, coping, saying good-bye. I wouldn't want to have missed out on that or had it jaded by alcohol. I don't think I could deal with it very well if I had to remember being under the influence during that time.
So sorry that you have to go through all of this. I guess it is just part of the deal of having pets. So many good years of life enhancing relationship but we know we have to let them go early. Rest in the fact that Tony had a good, long, and loved life.
It was very hard but had to be done and HAD TO BE DONE SOBER. Tony deserves your full attention, your true self, your sober and real support through the challenging time.
We spent probably 10 minutes with our pet after she was gone just remembering, coping, saying good-bye. I wouldn't want to have missed out on that or had it jaded by alcohol. I don't think I could deal with it very well if I had to remember being under the influence during that time.
So sorry that you have to go through all of this. I guess it is just part of the deal of having pets. So many good years of life enhancing relationship but we know we have to let them go early. Rest in the fact that Tony had a good, long, and loved life.
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Congratulations on your sobriety and I am very sorry about your dog. Losing an animal is just as hard as losing a part of our families. I am sending you support and prayers. Have you thought about a grief support group to help you get through this time. Glad you are staying sober it would just make it worse. Best wishes and I am really sorry for your loss.
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Hi Tony. Tough to lose a friend and pet like that. I do hope that you can stay sober as these are the knocks in life that are waiting with or without alcohol involved. I know that i am more likely to relapse on hard times rather than on the spontaneous urge to drink because I think I am ok again. So I would urge you to stay close to good members and to have the phone nearby at all times. Drinking on anger or on loneliness is a very major issue. You will have to go thru it Im afraid, and it wont b easy. Regards.
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I'm really sorry Chiyo.
One of my greatest regrets was not being there for my pets when they were dying...they were the ones really suffering but I was the one who ran away.
Be there for Tony...and do right by yourself afterward - it's right to grieve and feel sad...don't try and Numb that process...like you said drinking makes that process a lot longer.
You have a lot of support here
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One of my greatest regrets was not being there for my pets when they were dying...they were the ones really suffering but I was the one who ran away.
Be there for Tony...and do right by yourself afterward - it's right to grieve and feel sad...don't try and Numb that process...like you said drinking makes that process a lot longer.
You have a lot of support here
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