IndaMiricale

Good morning all,

I was up fairly early and done with my morning meditation. Getting ready to make my second to last walk to the courthouse to make my payment for the last dui I received. I have walked there for the last 16 months and now just two payments left.

But my thoughts this morning went off to those past months and what has happened to me physically and mentally. And what my program in AA and coming here to SR have brought me so much peace and serenity that I just never had, I thought I did sometimes but, that was just being completely numb.


In my drinking days, I had no peace, it was the opposite. I lived in a sort of whirlwind or turmoil which I knew to just be life. Or so I thought that how it was. It was caused by my physical well-being with the awful daily hangovers, always sweating, shaking out of my own body, and just feeling of utter disgust.

But along all those physical feelings, I also was just a mental wreck and suffering deeper than I ever knew before getting sober and working the steps. The loneliness, selfishness, inferiority, lying, stealing, vanity(dont know how, I looked like sh**), and just all around remorse. That every alcoholic I believe understands.

And today I dont have those feelings quite the opposite. I love the day to awake with humility, peace, happiness, and things filled to do for the day if I choose . For those of you that are new just keep going forward, try to get a plan or program that you like and work it. "Nothing changes if nothing changes".

Like many before me have said and I can today, If a alcoholic/addict like me can be saved you can also. So get out there and enjoy your sobriety and guard it, for it is the most precious thing we(I) have.

And always Smile cause Sobriety looks good on You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good love, Inda

justhadenough

thank you

Day 24 for me,struggling emotionally so posts like yours really help

Congrats on your sobriety

IndaMiricale

Awesome stuff congrats on 24 days of freedom.

Keep going it truly does get better.

justhadenough

thank you Inda

Jeni26

Thankyou. The further I get into sobriety the more I get glimpses of the life you describe. I can now see the person I could be. Life is good x

Live2Run25

great post. I've been feeling the same way. 53 days today.

IndaMiricale

Well done Live2Run , your doing great.

I have a lady that is in my home group that does ultra marathons off road on trails. I couldnt give her enough koodo's I think she is nuts. :rotfxko but then arent we all.

53 days so Cool. Enjoy your day.

WhiskeyBent

i enjoyed reading that. thanks.

IndaMiricale

Well another day

I made that trip 9 miles round trip. One more time to go. Yippiie. On the way stopped at the gym and then laid out by the pool. Now home. And beat.

So I hope everyone else had some good positive things in sobriety today. See ya tomorrow.

Sleep well all.