Slipping again... :(
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Slipping again... :(
*sigh* ... I was doing so well, until I started my 3 week holiday in mid-July.
I went through detox in April. A few days later, I went to rehab, but that was seriously the worst experience ever, so I chose to "sign myself out" before my original discharge date.
Though, after that, someone finally understood. I needed a proper benzo taper plan. Now I'm afraid I'm messing it up by drinking again (it's a strict plan, they need me to deliver a sample every week, to make sure I'm not using anything else - but I have a "break" from that during my vacation).
At the start of this vacation I was just thinking; "well, just one beer is no biggie". And before you know it, down the spiral I go ... It's such a classic scenario, isn't it?
So, now ... I seem to be back to the point where I get awfully anxious, shaking, etc, if I don't have a drink or two... things weren't like this when my doctor first agreed to give me a taper plan.
Ugh - this is a tough battle... & sorry, I just had to "shout" this out..
I went through detox in April. A few days later, I went to rehab, but that was seriously the worst experience ever, so I chose to "sign myself out" before my original discharge date.
Though, after that, someone finally understood. I needed a proper benzo taper plan. Now I'm afraid I'm messing it up by drinking again (it's a strict plan, they need me to deliver a sample every week, to make sure I'm not using anything else - but I have a "break" from that during my vacation).
At the start of this vacation I was just thinking; "well, just one beer is no biggie". And before you know it, down the spiral I go ... It's such a classic scenario, isn't it?
So, now ... I seem to be back to the point where I get awfully anxious, shaking, etc, if I don't have a drink or two... things weren't like this when my doctor first agreed to give me a taper plan.
Ugh - this is a tough battle... & sorry, I just had to "shout" this out..
For me, after receiving medical care, I needed a program of recovery. There was a lot more wrong with me than the physical side of this disease. I found my answer in AA. Through the process of working the 12 steps, I am free from the obsession to drink. I know longer have that nagging voice that tells me "one beer will be alright" Or "this time will be different.
Medical care is important and in many cases necessary, but most people find that after the physical removal from alcohol has taken place, they need to treat the real problem.
Good luck to you. Follow doctors orders and maybe consider AA.
Medical care is important and in many cases necessary, but most people find that after the physical removal from alcohol has taken place, they need to treat the real problem.
Good luck to you. Follow doctors orders and maybe consider AA.
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Thanks for the reply, BB.
I'd consider AA if the closest meetings from here weren't 3 hours away.
I know what you mean by getting into a program after medical care, though.
Anyways... I'll be going to eat with my family now - As for my drink, I'll just order a coffee ... hopefully. Cappuccinos are delicious
I'd consider AA if the closest meetings from here weren't 3 hours away.
I know what you mean by getting into a program after medical care, though.
Anyways... I'll be going to eat with my family now - As for my drink, I'll just order a coffee ... hopefully. Cappuccinos are delicious
Yeah, mixing alcohol with benzo's is a dangerous practice, as you know, of course. It goes to show just how life-threatening addictions often are... we have often known the consequnces, and go ahead and use anyways...
Best to work again with your doctor ASAP and do another medical detox perhaps? one better suited to your circumstances?
Many different programs and/or paths are availble for your post-detox recovery journey. Lotsa information about all that on SR.
Best and good wishes, Polaroid.
Best to work again with your doctor ASAP and do another medical detox perhaps? one better suited to your circumstances?
Many different programs and/or paths are availble for your post-detox recovery journey. Lotsa information about all that on SR.
Best and good wishes, Polaroid.
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Thanks for the reply, BB.
I'd consider AA if the closest meetings from here weren't 3 hours away.
I know what you mean by getting into a program after medical care, though.
Anyways... I'll be going to eat with my family now - As for my drink, I'll just order a coffee ... hopefully. Cappuccinos are delicious
I'd consider AA if the closest meetings from here weren't 3 hours away.
I know what you mean by getting into a program after medical care, though.
Anyways... I'll be going to eat with my family now - As for my drink, I'll just order a coffee ... hopefully. Cappuccinos are delicious
If you heard they were giving out free booze, crack and smack 3 hrs away you would find a way to get there... often.
If you aren't ready to take certain steps you are wasting your time.
I wish you the best.
Bob R
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Thank you, Bob.
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Yeah, mixing alcohol with benzo's is a dangerous practice, as you know, of course. It goes to show just how life-threatening addictions often are... we have often known the consequnces, and go ahead and use anyways...
Best to work again with your doctor ASAP and do another medical detox perhaps? one better suited to your circumstances?
Many different programs and/or paths are availble for your post-detox recovery journey. Lotsa information about all that on SR.
Best and good wishes, Polaroid.
Best to work again with your doctor ASAP and do another medical detox perhaps? one better suited to your circumstances?
Many different programs and/or paths are availble for your post-detox recovery journey. Lotsa information about all that on SR.
Best and good wishes, Polaroid.
Thanks for the good wishes though. =]
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Trust me when I say the nearest AA meetings are 3 hours away. I've done the research. I'm living in a small, isolated valley - I'll even have to bus for 20 minutes to get to the closest liquor store (and that's so sad it's almost funny).
I guess that's why I take the bus for nearly half an hour (hell, one hour return) to get my "fix".
Thank you, Bob.
I guess that's why I take the bus for nearly half an hour (hell, one hour return) to get my "fix".
Thank you, Bob.
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