Chrissy44

Sometimes, when my scar aches, I think of my "R"XABF. And occasionally, when my scar aches, I hope he's out there somewhere wasted, stealing pills, doing lines, and going back to jail.

I feel guilty about this.. Sometimes.

Katiekate

YOu are human, humans have feelings and thoughts, they are not always bright and cheery thoughts and feelings. Sometime negative thoughts / feelings are there for our own protection.

Alcoholics sometimes become our predators, everytime we get near them we get hurt, those thoughts and feelings are there to protect you.

You are not a bad person, you are human, and it's okay to be human.

Easy on yourself honey.

Katie xo

Chrissy44

Katiekate, your thoughtful response was so touching, I teared up! I've read it at least 50 times since you posted -- thank you for the kind insight