jakec

Hello everyone!

I'm in kind of a hard spot right now. On May 14th 2012, I went to rehab. I got discharged on July 4th for running away and relapsing. Since then, I've used twice. One time beings last night. I really don't know why I keep doing this, it's not at all fun like it used to be. I woke up this morning feeling the same way I did 3 months ago before going to treatment, I felt hopeless. But I have a choice now, and I want this, for myself. Not for anyone else. I'm sick of feeling like this and I'm sick of my addiction having total control over my life.
I had left-over pills from last night and I flushed them down the toilet, I'll probably wish I hadn't later on but it's for the best. I could really use all the support I can get.

LoftyIdeals

Welcome Jakec. You did the right thing flushing those pills, and coming here. There's lots of support for what you are going through. The key is to follow what you know is right...getting and staying clean. Keep sharing here, it really helps. It helps you and those who read your posts. God bless!

jakec

Thank you for the support! (=

Weasel1966

Jake.... I hear some really good things in your post. I hear more strength than you may feel at the moment but it's there. Trust me.

And you do have a choice. We choose everyday to be abstinent. It's not impossible by any means.

I went to 2.5 rehabs.... And still drank for years after that. Now is different. I was ready.

Maybe had I stayed that other .5 in the rehab everything would be different...

My best to you. Glad you here on SR. It's the best place to be when you need support.

Ken

aasharon90

There are many lessons in life that are
hard to learn and take some time to learn
them. However, if you remain teachable
no matter how long it takes, you will eventually
get it.

lifewithoutbooz

It's amazing what a person can accomplish when they're ready.

jakec

I'm so glad I found this fourm. Reading all your positive feedback gives me hope!

Weasel1966

Hope is the key to everything getting better.

It's also great to see you post support for others even as you might be hurting.

That's how it all works. Good for you!

Dee74

Welcome back Jake

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Hevyn

Happy to see you, Jake. You sound ready to be rid of this curse.

Just before I quit forever, I had the same feelings you do. In my heart I knew it was over. Drinking could never be fun for me again, the way it once was when I wasn't so dependent on it. I don't know why it was so hard to admit that. When I came here and found out I wasn't alone, that made all the difference. I found hope and enthusiasm for the future here - most people were very excited about getting sober - who knew?

We know you can do this, Jake. Life can be good again. You don't need that stuff.