hmmmmm....it must be me!!
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hmmmmm....it must be me!!
I quit smoking on June 16th with the use of the patch and I was a heavy smoker (close to 3 packs were lit, maybe not all smoked 
), I have a raging case of PMS, my husband who's been clean from percocets for around 50 (?) days just went off suboxone and not to scare anyone but his withdrawals were baddddd. I felt a little bad for him at times but mostly inconvenienced. Also, I haven't felt good for the past 3 days either. Fever, fatigue, achy all over. And lastly, I am very anxious about what going to happen with my son.
But I have to be honest for a minute. I am sick of addiction and I am sick of recovery for codependency as well. I am sick of meetings and therapist appointments.
I just want to live my life. I want to laugh and have fun and not second guess myself about what is codependent or not. I am tired of hearing recovery talk too.
Is it me or has anyone else felt this way from time to time? When did life become so complicated and serious?
), I have a raging case of PMS, my husband who's been clean from percocets for around 50 (?) days just went off suboxone and not to scare anyone but his withdrawals were baddddd. I felt a little bad for him at times but mostly inconvenienced. Also, I haven't felt good for the past 3 days either. Fever, fatigue, achy all over. And lastly, I am very anxious about what going to happen with my son. But I have to be honest for a minute. I am sick of addiction and I am sick of recovery for codependency as well. I am sick of meetings and therapist appointments.
I just want to live my life. I want to laugh and have fun and not second guess myself about what is codependent or not. I am tired of hearing recovery talk too.
Is it me or has anyone else felt this way from time to time? When did life become so complicated and serious?
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It's a bummer we need to be here at all.
Putting my son's issues aside, I have learned a great deal about myself since coming here.
My anti-codependency "training" has been useful in many aspects of my life. My family is "Springer-like".
I still fall off the wagon from time to time, but I'm usually quick to realize it and adjust. (or my wife adjusts it...)
I too wish it wasn't front and center all the time, but I'm a relative newbie.
I'm sure it'll become second nature.
Putting my son's issues aside, I have learned a great deal about myself since coming here.
My anti-codependency "training" has been useful in many aspects of my life. My family is "Springer-like".
I still fall off the wagon from time to time, but I'm usually quick to realize it and adjust. (or my wife adjusts it...)
I too wish it wasn't front and center all the time, but I'm a relative newbie.
I'm sure it'll become second nature.
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Originally Posted by LoveMeNot 
Is it me or has anyone else felt this way from time to time? When did life become so complicated and serious?
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(((((LMN)))))
I have felt the same way I just keep pushing myself when I do and sometimes I will take a day or two break I sometimes fill overwhelmed in my case at times I think maybe I am reading too much at once trying to adsorb all I can then find that I get confused on what is what. Seems every time I think I have figured something out or am at a place I need to be I am told I am not ....
I will not stop I know I have to do this in order to ever have a healthy life. Just gonna keep cleaning up my gallons of spilled milk. I HATE drugs and I Hate codependency.
I can't do anything about the drugs but I can do something about the codependency.
I hope you feel better about it soon.
I have felt the same way I just keep pushing myself when I do and sometimes I will take a day or two break I sometimes fill overwhelmed in my case at times I think maybe I am reading too much at once trying to adsorb all I can then find that I get confused on what is what. Seems every time I think I have figured something out or am at a place I need to be I am told I am not ....
I will not stop I know I have to do this in order to ever have a healthy life. Just gonna keep cleaning up my gallons of spilled milk. I HATE drugs and I Hate codependency.
I can't do anything about the drugs but I can do something about the codependency.
I hope you feel better about it soon.
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Sometimes I need to do just that......live life. So I do. I set aside recovery work for a day or two.....but I always come back to it because it helps me.....live life.
I'm so sorry that you're not feeling well. I hope that tomorrow is a better day. Do something nice for yourself and makes you feel special and nourished. You deserve it.
gentle hugs
ke
I'm so sorry that you're not feeling well. I hope that tomorrow is a better day. Do something nice for yourself and makes you feel special and nourished. You deserve it.
gentle hugs
ke
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Yes LMN, think we all go there - the fed-up stage. We just want normal, non-addict behavior , if we can remember what that is like.
Hope you have a good laugh sometime today and have fun along the way.
I care.
Hope you have a good laugh sometime today and have fun along the way.
I care.
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Wow, I was just thinking this the last couple of days and I'm a newbie. I think as long as you have a healthy view on things, that you aren't completely abandoning what has been helpful, IMO I think it's ok to take a 'mini vacation' from things.
Have you ever noticed out of the blue you all of a sudden crave a steak, or a particular vegetable or some other food that isn't the normal crave food (be it pizza, chocolate, etc.). It's your bodies way of telling you you need certain nutrients. I think it's the same for this. Your inner voice is giving you permission to take a break.
In all wars, R&R is taken, groups retreat not because they are giving up but because a sense of renewal is gained and you come back better, stronger, and ready to take on the world again.
So take that vacation, even if it's in your own mind :-)
Have you ever noticed out of the blue you all of a sudden crave a steak, or a particular vegetable or some other food that isn't the normal crave food (be it pizza, chocolate, etc.). It's your bodies way of telling you you need certain nutrients. I think it's the same for this. Your inner voice is giving you permission to take a break.
In all wars, R&R is taken, groups retreat not because they are giving up but because a sense of renewal is gained and you come back better, stronger, and ready to take on the world again.
So take that vacation, even if it's in your own mind :-)
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LMN,
When I'm not feeling well I often feel yucky about everything around me.
The recovery work for you is about you. At least you recognise that you need a break from it all, so take it. And, you know where to find the help when you need it most.
That in itself is a healthy plan...know when enough is enough and do something about it.
When I'm not feeling well I often feel yucky about everything around me.
The recovery work for you is about you. At least you recognise that you need a break from it all, so take it. And, you know where to find the help when you need it most.
That in itself is a healthy plan...know when enough is enough and do something about it.
To thine own self be true.
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Originally Posted by anvilhead
wanting to just "have fun" means we suddenly find our lives boring, tedious or monotonous. (that was exactly where i was at 7.5 years clean and sober when i decided drinking was a good idea).
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