TOPIC: I'm Not Apologizing For Having Fun
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TOPIC: I'm Not Apologizing For Having Fun
Hi, Im Sharon and I am an Alcoholic
in recovery since August 11, 1990.
As I was sitting outide with my cup of coffee
thinking of what to share here on SR today,
a flock of Geese flew over head making me
smile and sending them a happy journey message
thru the air.
I remember vividly how I felt that very day my
family rescued me from trying to end my so
called miserable life, calling the authorities to
pick me up, which was called family intervention.
A family doing for me what I certainly couldnt do
for myself.
It was a cry for help to them, but was guilt for
drinking the night before and taking a hand full
pain pills to end any more arguements for coming
in late from a club. For not being able to control
my drinking, lieing, infedelity.
I spent 28 days in rehab so I wouldnt be transported
to a halfway house away from my family any longer
than I had to. To stay and do what ever I needed to do
to get back home as quickly as I could to my babies.
Resentments set in big time because family took
away something I so enjoyed doing. Drinking. Like
so many here trying to understand why what we enjoy
doing so much can destroy us and our families. I hated
them, resented them for a long time until I understood
what they did, and with the recovery knowledge and tools
I picked up 21 yrs ago in rehab and rooms of AA.
Eventually I began to replace guilty choices i was
making in my life to healthy ones which allowed me
to place the key in the locked door of my life and
release me from the bondage of my addiction.
Freedom is what that is called and I finally got that
back in December 2006 when I became completely
honest in all my affairs. Why so long you ask? Well,
even tho I remain sober thruout the yrs working my
program of recovery to stay sober, I didnt want to let
go of some unhealthy choices in my life which kept me
chained to restlessness, irritability and discontent.
Continueing on my recovery path, I prayed to be removed
from the past and set me on a path to be happy and honest.
Today, I can honestly say I am happy and content. Grateful
and blessed.
So, to all those who doubted me to stay sober and be
happy, I refuse to aplogize for it. To take away a love
in my life, alcohol, i'll say thank you. For saving my life,
I say thank you. For having fun today, I say thank you.
All said with gratefullness and graditude. YAH..!
in recovery since August 11, 1990.
As I was sitting outide with my cup of coffee
thinking of what to share here on SR today,
a flock of Geese flew over head making me
smile and sending them a happy journey message
thru the air.
I remember vividly how I felt that very day my
family rescued me from trying to end my so
called miserable life, calling the authorities to
pick me up, which was called family intervention.
A family doing for me what I certainly couldnt do
for myself.
It was a cry for help to them, but was guilt for
drinking the night before and taking a hand full
pain pills to end any more arguements for coming
in late from a club. For not being able to control
my drinking, lieing, infedelity.
I spent 28 days in rehab so I wouldnt be transported
to a halfway house away from my family any longer
than I had to. To stay and do what ever I needed to do
to get back home as quickly as I could to my babies.
Resentments set in big time because family took
away something I so enjoyed doing. Drinking. Like
so many here trying to understand why what we enjoy
doing so much can destroy us and our families. I hated
them, resented them for a long time until I understood
what they did, and with the recovery knowledge and tools
I picked up 21 yrs ago in rehab and rooms of AA.
Eventually I began to replace guilty choices i was
making in my life to healthy ones which allowed me
to place the key in the locked door of my life and
release me from the bondage of my addiction.
Freedom is what that is called and I finally got that
back in December 2006 when I became completely
honest in all my affairs. Why so long you ask? Well,
even tho I remain sober thruout the yrs working my
program of recovery to stay sober, I didnt want to let
go of some unhealthy choices in my life which kept me
chained to restlessness, irritability and discontent.
Continueing on my recovery path, I prayed to be removed
from the past and set me on a path to be happy and honest.
Today, I can honestly say I am happy and content. Grateful
and blessed.
So, to all those who doubted me to stay sober and be
happy, I refuse to aplogize for it. To take away a love
in my life, alcohol, i'll say thank you. For saving my life,
I say thank you. For having fun today, I say thank you.
All said with gratefullness and graditude. YAH..!
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What an amazing, beautiful and heartfelt post! I admire your honesty, integrity, and strength! Many blessings to you on being sober for so long and having such a healthy positive attitude.. Im sure many will benefit from your story and strength!
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Going back to those Geese I saw, as they
fly to their destination in life, they will be
challenged with mother nature, preditors,
all sorts of obsticales, and many will make
it and many will be left behind.
Hopefully, with the knowledge they learned
a babies it will carry them thru life avoiding
those temptation to stray the course. To grow
and carry their own message of hope to their
babies.
The world is at their wings to fly to, to experience,
to enjoy and we send wishes to them.
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