They didnt eat me
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They didnt eat me
I did it.
I went to the meeting last night all alone.
It was scary, the people were older than me, someone son had overdosed and she talked about how he got brought back to life by some shot the paramedics gave him. And everyone was hugging her and she was crying. That part was awful. The lady that was at the speaker came to talk to me before I could leave. She was nice to me. I told her a little about my boyfriend. His legal problems and that he quit 3 years ago. She said if it aint broke don’t try to fix it. She welcomed me to come to the next meeting and gave me a bunch of stuff to read. I got to my car and cried. But then I felt very proud of myself for going in there and doing this for myself.
Thank you for encouraging me and being my bookends.
I still dont know what Im doing about my boyfriend but Im proud of myself for being brave yesterday. I didnt sleep all night though.
I went to the meeting last night all alone.
It was scary, the people were older than me, someone son had overdosed and she talked about how he got brought back to life by some shot the paramedics gave him. And everyone was hugging her and she was crying. That part was awful. The lady that was at the speaker came to talk to me before I could leave. She was nice to me. I told her a little about my boyfriend. His legal problems and that he quit 3 years ago. She said if it aint broke don’t try to fix it. She welcomed me to come to the next meeting and gave me a bunch of stuff to read. I got to my car and cried. But then I felt very proud of myself for going in there and doing this for myself.
Thank you for encouraging me and being my bookends.
I still dont know what Im doing about my boyfriend but Im proud of myself for being brave yesterday. I didnt sleep all night though.
Our little girl is growing up! lolol
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Join Date: Nov 2011
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great job Pink!
whatever happens with your future moving forward, whatever decisions you make...you know this now: that you are finding the courage and resources to take care of yourself. whatever situation you are in you know that you have access to the help of a community that cares about you and can help you figure out the confusion.
congratulations to you for having so much courage!!!
and even though you may believe it "ain't broke" you know that it has been broken before. if it IS broke (even if you are unaware of it) it will affect you, it does have the power to break you too...now you have resources to help keep you from finding yourself broken.
whatever happens with your future moving forward, whatever decisions you make...you know this now: that you are finding the courage and resources to take care of yourself. whatever situation you are in you know that you have access to the help of a community that cares about you and can help you figure out the confusion.
congratulations to you for having so much courage!!!
and even though you may believe it "ain't broke" you know that it has been broken before. if it IS broke (even if you are unaware of it) it will affect you, it does have the power to break you too...now you have resources to help keep you from finding yourself broken.
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Originally Posted by anvilhead 
:ghug3VERY GOOD!!! you should be DANG proud of yourself!
how are them "big girl panties" feeling?
that's nice that she gave reading materials and invited you back. and didn't pour BBQ sauce on you!
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((Pink)) - AWESOME!!! I don't know that you realize it, but you have come sooooo far since you first came here. Honestly? All we want for you is to do what's best for YOU. Yes, we would also like to spare you some pain that some of us have gone through, but bottom line - we've got your back. Yes, some things may sting at the time, but it's all done with your best interests in mind.
The greatest thing I've learned about SR is the posts that ticked me off or made me say "ouch!!!" where what I needed to hear, and someone cared enough about me to say it.
Keep on keepin on, sweetie.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
The greatest thing I've learned about SR is the posts that ticked me off or made me say "ouch!!!" where what I needed to hear, and someone cared enough about me to say it.
Keep on keepin on, sweetie.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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You have no idea how much it means to have you all care and be proud of me. I cant even believe I get that from people of a website forum. people I dont even know.
I feel sort of like Ive been a sponge trying to soak in things from all of you
Anvil. Big Girl pantys but not Granny Panties ewwww.....
I feel sort of like Ive been a sponge trying to soak in things from all of you
Anvil. Big Girl pantys but not Granny Panties ewwww.....
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((Pink)) - I have to admit, it is SO good to see more of YOU come through your posts, not all about the bf. I had to laugh about the big girl panties vs the g'ma panties
I had never been on a forum before SR. I am amazed at how many friends I've made here, and how much I've moved forward in my recoveries.
We "get" each other. We care about each other. Sometimes we're a bit tough-love, but we share what has worked for us. I can tell you one thing...I am soooo not the person when I first came here, and this is a good thing. We slip and slide, we get our feelings hurt and step away, and we learn.
You have already come a long way. The best part is you've kept your sense of humor!! Really glad they didn't put you on a grill and eat you
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
I had never been on a forum before SR. I am amazed at how many friends I've made here, and how much I've moved forward in my recoveries.
We "get" each other. We care about each other. Sometimes we're a bit tough-love, but we share what has worked for us. I can tell you one thing...I am soooo not the person when I first came here, and this is a good thing. We slip and slide, we get our feelings hurt and step away, and we learn.
You have already come a long way. The best part is you've kept your sense of humor!! Really glad they didn't put you on a grill and eat you
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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I am very proud of you and hope you continue to attend those meetings.
I will be even more proud when you can stop saying 'his truth' ie "he quit 3 years ago" when he has used within the last year (drugs) and within the last two weeks (drinks).
But this is an excellent start for you.
Keep going, keep posting and asking questions, I know you do not always like our answers, but I think you have now come to realize that we do not lie, we tell you what we have had to learn the hard way.
Love and hugs,
I will be even more proud when you can stop saying 'his truth' ie "he quit 3 years ago" when he has used within the last year (drugs) and within the last two weeks (drinks).
But this is an excellent start for you.
Keep going, keep posting and asking questions, I know you do not always like our answers, but I think you have now come to realize that we do not lie, we tell you what we have had to learn the hard way.
Love and hugs,
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Pink!
I laughed out loud. I think that you should write a little pamphlet for NA about getting the courage to go to your 1st meeting.
What you did was take responsibility for your own self and your well being! What a great thing. No matter what....you'll never again have to go to your first meeting.
I've gone to a combination of Alanon and Naranon meetings through the years. Try both if you decide that Naranon is not quite right for you.
Honestly, it really doesn't matter if your BF is an addict or not....these programs are great programs for just living! Whenever I see young women your age show up I really hope that they will "keep coming back". Our culture is so addicted and it is especially easy for women in particularly to become co-dependent. I had no idea what that even meant until I was almost 40!!!!!!
I am really glad that they didn't eat my friend Pink!!!!!! Thanks for sharing your experience with us!!!!
I laughed out loud. I think that you should write a little pamphlet for NA about getting the courage to go to your 1st meeting.
What you did was take responsibility for your own self and your well being! What a great thing. No matter what....you'll never again have to go to your first meeting.
I've gone to a combination of Alanon and Naranon meetings through the years. Try both if you decide that Naranon is not quite right for you.
Honestly, it really doesn't matter if your BF is an addict or not....these programs are great programs for just living! Whenever I see young women your age show up I really hope that they will "keep coming back". Our culture is so addicted and it is especially easy for women in particularly to become co-dependent. I had no idea what that even meant until I was almost 40!!!!!!
I am really glad that they didn't eat my friend Pink!!!!!! Thanks for sharing your experience with us!!!!
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