Looking back to where I was 11 days ago
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Looking back to where I was 11 days ago
11 days ago I woke up hungover, hurting, angry, and so full of guilt for how horrible I was the weekend before with my family and with myself. For the first time EVER, I admitted to my husband that I needed help and I could not handle life on my own. That morning, I surrendered myself to God and realized that I could not keep living the way I was living.
11 days ago, I found SR and did some other research online. I called a doctor and made an appointment. I poured the rest of the booze down the sink. I bought some recovery books on my kindle. I did a lot of crying.
11 days ago, I appologized to my two little kids and made them a promise that I would learn how to be a better Mom.
Within a few days, after that last hangover faded, I started to feel better. During the past week and a half, I have handled a visit with my in-laws, a night out on the town, tantrums from the kids, a fight with my husband, and the news that he lost his job. Life is hard, like always, and there is always something coming up. BUT I have never felt so close to "emotionally stable" as I have ever felt before. The mood swings are already getting less and less. Alcohol made life SO MUCH HARDER. I honestly expected it to get worse without my "crutch". But I was wrong.
We CAN do this. I am very early in my sobriety but I have had enough of a glimpse of what life can be like without booze that I am committed to continuing down this path.
11 days ago, I found SR and did some other research online. I called a doctor and made an appointment. I poured the rest of the booze down the sink. I bought some recovery books on my kindle. I did a lot of crying.
11 days ago, I appologized to my two little kids and made them a promise that I would learn how to be a better Mom.
Within a few days, after that last hangover faded, I started to feel better. During the past week and a half, I have handled a visit with my in-laws, a night out on the town, tantrums from the kids, a fight with my husband, and the news that he lost his job. Life is hard, like always, and there is always something coming up. BUT I have never felt so close to "emotionally stable" as I have ever felt before. The mood swings are already getting less and less. Alcohol made life SO MUCH HARDER. I honestly expected it to get worse without my "crutch". But I was wrong.
We CAN do this. I am very early in my sobriety but I have had enough of a glimpse of what life can be like without booze that I am committed to continuing down this path.
Congratulations, tara! Great post!
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Originally Posted by tara8888 
11 days ago I woke up hungover, hurting, angry, and so full of guilt for how horrible I was the weekend before with my family and with myself. For the first time EVER, I admitted to my husband that I needed help and I could not handle life on my own. That morning, I surrendered myself to God and realized that I could not keep living the way I was living.
11 days ago, I found SR and did some other research online. I called a doctor and made an appointment. I poured the rest of the booze down the sink. I bought some recovery books on my kindle. I did a lot of crying.
11 days ago, I appologized to my two little kids and made them a promise that I would learn how to be a better Mom.
Within a few days, after that last hangover faded, I started to feel better. During the past week and a half, I have handled a visit with my in-laws, a night out on the town, tantrums from the kids, a fight with my husband, and the news that he lost his job. Life is hard, like always, and there is always something coming up. BUT I have never felt so close to "emotionally stable" as I have ever felt before. The mood swings are already getting less and less. Alcohol made life SO MUCH HARDER. I honestly expected it to get worse without my "crutch". But I was wrong.
We CAN do this. I am very early in my sobriety but I have had enough of a glimpse of what life can be like without booze that I am committed to continuing down this path.
11 days ago, I found SR and did some other research online. I called a doctor and made an appointment. I poured the rest of the booze down the sink. I bought some recovery books on my kindle. I did a lot of crying.
11 days ago, I appologized to my two little kids and made them a promise that I would learn how to be a better Mom.
Within a few days, after that last hangover faded, I started to feel better. During the past week and a half, I have handled a visit with my in-laws, a night out on the town, tantrums from the kids, a fight with my husband, and the news that he lost his job. Life is hard, like always, and there is always something coming up. BUT I have never felt so close to "emotionally stable" as I have ever felt before. The mood swings are already getting less and less. Alcohol made life SO MUCH HARDER. I honestly expected it to get worse without my "crutch". But I was wrong.
We CAN do this. I am very early in my sobriety but I have had enough of a glimpse of what life can be like without booze that I am committed to continuing down this path.
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Originally Posted by tara8888
11 days ago I woke up hungover, hurting, angry, and so full of guilt for how horrible I was the weekend before with my family and with myself. For the first time EVER, I admitted to my husband that I needed help and I could not handle life on my own. That morning, I surrendered myself to God and realized that I could not keep living the way I was living.
11 days ago, I found SR and did some other research online. I called a doctor and made an appointment. I poured the rest of the booze down the sink. I bought some recovery books on my kindle. I did a lot of crying.
11 days ago, I appologized to my two little kids and made them a promise that I would learn how to be a better Mom.
Within a few days, after that last hangover faded, I started to feel better. During the past week and a half, I have handled a visit with my in-laws, a night out on the town, tantrums from the kids, a fight with my husband, and the news that he lost his job. Life is hard, like always, and there is always something coming up. BUT I have never felt so close to "emotionally stable" as I have ever felt before. The mood swings are already getting less and less. Alcohol made life SO MUCH HARDER. I honestly expected it to get worse without my "crutch". But I was wrong.
We CAN do this. I am very early in my sobriety but I have had enough of a glimpse of what life can be like without booze that I am committed to continuing down this path.
11 days ago, I found SR and did some other research online. I called a doctor and made an appointment. I poured the rest of the booze down the sink. I bought some recovery books on my kindle. I did a lot of crying.
11 days ago, I appologized to my two little kids and made them a promise that I would learn how to be a better Mom.
Within a few days, after that last hangover faded, I started to feel better. During the past week and a half, I have handled a visit with my in-laws, a night out on the town, tantrums from the kids, a fight with my husband, and the news that he lost his job. Life is hard, like always, and there is always something coming up. BUT I have never felt so close to "emotionally stable" as I have ever felt before. The mood swings are already getting less and less. Alcohol made life SO MUCH HARDER. I honestly expected it to get worse without my "crutch". But I was wrong.
We CAN do this. I am very early in my sobriety but I have had enough of a glimpse of what life can be like without booze that I am committed to continuing down this path.
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Hi tara. It's crazy how the very thing we're using to calm ourselves down ends up turning on us. I was filled with anxiety and terrified of every day life when I decided to stop. Alcohol wasn't the fun, relaxing thing it used to be - it had become a necessity. Thank you for an inspiring post. 
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