Loneywife

Last night, I actually started enjoying the peace and quiet of the house with no AH. I do still miss him a lot, and there's times where I get weepy, but it's really nice to be in a house with no chaos going on.

My in laws haven't been around the house since he died, and there hasn't been the barrage of phone calls either. Even the dog seems to be much calmer and more settled into her new role.

I can't believe that I'm feeling this way almost a month after AH has died. The last few months of his life were torture for him, myself and his family.

Kindeyes

It takes time......I'm glad that you are feeling peaceful.

gentle hugs
ke

lightseeker

I'm glad that you've been able to feel a sense of calm. The last while has been really tough for you and I know that the chaos was unbearable.

I can't believe that it has already been a month.....I know that you must have a huge range of emotions. My situation is different in that I have separated from my husband but I'm still surprised how I can have such a swing of feelings. But....there is a lot to be said for calm.

Gentle hugs....

lesliej

I have been in a situation where I almost felt guilty for the sense of peace and relief that I experienced after the loss of someone. I am glad for you that you are feeling well and good, so much life awaits. Peace to you.

Loneywife

Thank you all. I was feeling pretty good last night, but slept like crap in the overnight. I can't expect to get everything all at once.

pinkdog

Love and hugs to you.

Loneywife

Still can't sleep through the night. I don't know when I will be able to. I never thought it would be this hard. My former life with AH is disappearing day by day, and I'm trying to embrace the changes. It's tough right now.

I returned to one of my meetings the last two weeks, but I'm not sure if it's helping me or making me feel worse.

tjp613

What kind of meetings? Alanon? Maybe you would best benefit from a grief and loss group right now. Have you checked?

Loneywife

I went back to my naranon meetings that I used to attend when AH was still alive. The grief support groups in my area are predominately people that are much older than I am; I find it hard to relate to the members there unfortunately.