aeo1313

I was thinking today what a better mother I am lately. My children were never neglected, but on weekends I loved when they would sleep at my folks so I could drink as much as I wanted. And when I was smoking pot I always wanted them out of the house and was resentful when they were around bc I couldn't get high. I chose popping pills and laying in bed at night over hanging out with them and my husband.

I felt I always had to hide from them.

I don't have to hide anymore. I feel so free.

aeo1313

AND...yesterday I ran 1.75 miles without walking. For some that might be a warmup but for me it was a big deal!

Cinderblock18

Me too!!! I feel so relieved that I can be a good mother and wife. I was so proud of myself this weekend. We played in the sand, grilled food, and enjoyed boat life. I wasn't worried about keeping my buzz. When my son came around I could give him a big patient smile, instead of wishing he was not killing my buzz and getting in the way of my drinking time. I hope to recall this feeling when I'm tempted to drink again. AND I drove us home safely! I rewarded myself with a Mocho Coconut Frappacino from Starbucks, it was amazing!

FredG

I'm so glad that you're a grateful recipient of that particular gift.

Ain't His artwork grand.