One week ago today.....
One week ago today.....
I woke up hungover and at rock bottom and knew it was the day to start the big plan. A week later: i feel full of energy. My jeans fit better. My hair is shiny. I sleep through the night for the first time in years. I have saved seventy pounds. I am not ashamed of my behaviour. How have i done this to myself for twenty two years? Twenty two years of drinking every day. Twenty two years of thinking life was BETTER with alcohol when in fact it was so much worse. I was forty a week ago today. My life is just beginning.
Thanks all! I just felt so full of hope and joy this morning. This is the longest in twenty two years without a drink (apart from my pregnancies). I didn't drink a lot everyday....just every day and sometimes a lot. My father and grandfather were alcoholics and i just sort of accepted that this was me, it was in my bones...i was an alcoholic, i was powerless. I drank moderately sometimes but always felt that at any time i could fall. I held it together mostly, went to work every day, functioned, kids always clean, fed and loved...but when they were staying with their dad...hooooooo. Then i was in the pub and i saw this woman. Dishevelled, drunk, broken veins, too low cut a top...and it was like scrooge when he sees the ghost of christmas future. I knew that i would become that poor woman. I went home. I read the AVRT book. I poured a bottle of vodka and four beers down the sink. I swore that from that moment on i would never ever drink again...and here i am. And i will never, ever drink again. Much love to you all. I have read so many posts on here that have helped me. Thank you x
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I dumped all my booze when I quit myself... a little over 3 months ago. It was the first time that instead of finishing everything that I decided to just quit BEFORE drinking it all. I think that is a good sign. I still have thoughts of alcohol from time to time but it is A LOT easier to handle now than it was in the first month or so. Keep that in mind my friend... it DOES get easier as time goes on! Welcome -- I'm grateful to have you here!
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