Weasel1966

If it could only be that easy to wish it away with a child's innocence.

I am stronger than it is. I control everything and not Guido. To those who don't know me my AV is named Guido. A slimy kind of dude not welcome where ever he goes.

So far I have been promised fun.... Excitement..... Sex....( he almost got me on that one) ....tasty wings and potato skins..... People to receive me with open arms at the pub.... Telling me how funny I am and how we have such a good time.

Knowledge is power correct?

I hear him and understand myself and potential situations better.

Heading to my favorite pizza place and then replanting some new plants.

Ahhhhh.... That's better!

My best to you all!

Anna

Good for you for recognizing the 'voice'. Let it go and carry on with your day.

artsoul

Those slimy dudes love to pitch a fit, don't they?! Happy gardening!!

Luling

Way to go, you show Guido who's boss!

Maybe I'll call my AV Fat Ba$tard ...

bumble

I'd secretly started calling mine "Gremlin"....Nice to know I'm not the only one nutty enough to name it!

MalkavianEmily

She's a cunning one alright, and to be honest, she's wearing me down. I'm feeling really low, and I'm not sure why. I've had to fend her off the last couple of days by promising her that I'll buy her something tomorrow. Always tomorrow. Sooner or later she'll twig that tomorrow never comes...
I find it hard to say the A word. As if by not saying it, I can convince myself it's not true. The thing is, if I start to believe there's no problem... then I'm likely to end up drinking again. Because if I don't have a problem, then it's ok for me to drink, right?
And, to be honest, that appeals right now. So much stuff's happened this week that... I know, it's an excuse. But I'm good at those.
I used to say I drank too much because people bought me drinks. But if I went somewhere where I thought people would do that, and they didn't... I got miserable. I made all kinds of excuses.
I've got a game convention this weekend, and I'm not looking forward to it. To be honest, I'd rather spend it... doing something else.

Bonnie1

I have a name for my shoulders too. The left shoulder is the angel and the right shoulder is the evil one.
My god they have had a few battles!!!
But I think the evil one was snarling and cursing a few days ago. Even at 4am while I could'nt sleep, it was goading me to take a drink. I never even drunk 'till the late afternoons!
The evil one has been keeping low for a while but still tells me it's there from time to time.......

Weasel1966

I finished the pizza... Was damn awesome!

Replanted plants.... They look great.

Guido will not give up but only because he has not yet been properly trained. Only day 5 here.

Yes it is nutty to name the AV. But if we are not a little nutty we will never out smart it.

The sane must become the insane to win this.

I will still hold out. I made a solemn decision to myself to be sober.

A little humor helps....

desertsong

I love it, Ken. Humor means everything. I especially liked your post about putting Guido in a box without air holes. I think of that every day and it always gives me a chuckle.

You GO, dude. Way to keep workin' it.

freshstart57

Recognizing our AV is the start, but the rubber meets the road when we tell our beast that we are never going to drink again, and we will never change our mind. We are in charge, we get to choose, and there is no room for alcohol now. If alcohol, then death. If sober, then life. And peace, and serenity, joy, beauty.

Weasel1966

Fresh start I would agree that a deadly serious attitude is needed to fight a deadly serious issue. But there are so many very serious posts here every day. I know... I write them.

But from time to time a little light hearted play with the topic is needed.

I agree with what you said.

My rubber is on the road.