So Setting Myself Up For A Relapse But...
So Setting Myself Up For A Relapse But...
Pain, hurt, isolating. Reading the book on what the F**K. Things are unraveling and I'm not so good at mending. Giving myself every ratioale and excuse to bottle myself. Like why I should fills a page, why I shouldn't just I can't and don't want to. Guess I need to go with the rationale, sane reasons because that is sanity and salvation. Going to make some calls, meetings and decide that living with some pain, panic, fear and discomfort beats not living. I'm good at supporting my family, lots of work to do on supporting myself. A little fearful of going out but terrifyied of staying inside myself. I guess when the sh*t hits the fan its best not to stand in the breeze and breathe it in. Pain passes, self destruction lasts forever. Thinks for being here, best get busy living. As always, best to all and to my self.
Fitz, feelings are just temporary. They have no power unless you give them power. Just wait them out, no matter how uncomfortable. We have to learn to do this stuff without our crutch. You have more strength than you know, friend. Draw on it. Now.
It takes strength to reach out...I never did, that's why I kept relapsing...still don't know if I will be able to ask for help in crisis time...keep posting, meeting whatever works for you...positive thoughts coming your way...thanks for being on SR, your posts have helped me...
There is no problem that alcohol can't make worse
If I'm having bad day, I just go to bed earlier
This too shall pass
For me drinking is like having sex with a gorilla, we're not done until it says so
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing when you know the results will be the same
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Just thought I'd send some positive quotes your way. I'm sure you've heard them all before, but it helps to hear them every now and again.
I relapsed a year ago. AND IT WAS NOT WORTH IT.
If I'm having bad day, I just go to bed earlier
This too shall pass
For me drinking is like having sex with a gorilla, we're not done until it says so
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing when you know the results will be the same
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Just thought I'd send some positive quotes your way. I'm sure you've heard them all before, but it helps to hear them every now and again.
I relapsed a year ago. AND IT WAS NOT WORTH IT.
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Yep, always a new day. Good for you, Fitz. Don't buy into the lies your addiction feeds you—there's no comfort to be found in that bottle, only deeper despair. Give yourself time. It's sometimes slow going, climbing out of the pit we dug for ourselves. There are good days and bad days. Either way, we're 24 hours farther along. That's progress.
Side Note: Reggie, I love your posts, but I'm going to do my best to forget the image you just conjured...
Side Note: Reggie, I love your posts, but I'm going to do my best to forget the image you just conjured...
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