theysayimcrazy

i'm using again.. it's amazing how quickly i just stopped praying and everything else program related. trying to find the motivation to stop. going to a meeting tonight but meh.... it's always so hard for me to pull myself out again

Sapling

How did I find motivation?....I was beaten into it.....I had nothing left to lose and was staring death in the face. It's amazing what lengths that will make you willing to go.

debsam

The fear of living my life the way it was, became bigger than my fear of change.

That is when I changed and I would have done anything to get it....sobriety.

tomsteve

how i found the motivation is seeing that alcohol and drugs were gonna kill me. not could or may.


whenever i got a case of the "f***-its" i called someone else in recovery and then got on my knees.

tomsteve

now start praying for the motivation. yer worth it and God says so!

Anna

I think that fear was my original motivation too.

My health was a mess, my life was falling apart.

I hope that you find your way.

Zencat

You CAN Change; You Better Believe It
Its important to believe in your ability to pull yourself out of active addiction. Doing such keeps me motivated, I hope you can get motivated again, a life of drinking/drugging is not you want.

gordano

My motivation was when I realized I lost the respect of my wife and kids.

OCDDan

I got threatened with my job, had black and blue all over me and my health and was fairly haggared

sugarbear1

I had no life left, no money, no job...me and the bottle....had to stop....had been happening for too long.

Meetings saved me until I found a sponsor and worked the steps.

Glad you are here!

theysayimcrazy

thank you everyone... i really appreciate it

GirlFromCO

You find motivation or it finds you - question is, will you have any strength left to fight once you really want to quit? I hope so. Always better to quit while you're still relatively ahead. It only gets harder when you put it off.

Inca

I force myself to make it through a couple of days. Those are the worst and then I find the motivation pushes me to workout, eat right, set goals, be well...

MrsKing

As many people have said, for me it was fear. Fear that I would always be that way - wasting my life, no employment, my husband always upset with me. Fear that I would always be ashamed, embarrassed, depressed. Fear that I would lose everything to something that I didn't even like any longer. Fear that if I didn't do it RIGHT THEN, that would be me forever.

I hope you find that desire within you that pulls you through... as someone has suggested, going through a few days of hell may help. That feeling of having a few days behind you really gives you a buzz and can keep you going.

Good luck and stay strong x

MalkavianEmily

For me, it was the realisation that it wasn't worth it anymore. That the feeling I got from drinking didn't last for long, and when it wore off I was anxious and miserable. That, and learning that the whole, 'next time, I'll be able to control it' was... just me kidding myself.
I didn't drink because I was lonely, or depressed, or stressed. They were just excuses. I drank whether I was happy or miserable. I drank whether I was alone or not. I drank because I liked the feeling I got.
And then it got brought home to me that no, I couldn't control it. That's when I knew that it was very simple. Don't pick up drink number one. And no, simple isn't the same as easy. And so, I don't. One day at a time. One hour at a time if necessary.