an addicts poem

Old 06-10-2012, 03:27 AM
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an addicts poem

My heroin addict boyfriend wrote a poem from prison, I thought Id share it with you all.

Ive had enough, I dont want it anymore
Im sick of being behind a prison door
Im not at home with the ones I love
My minds made up now, Ive had enough
3 times in jail, thats my story
Being a drug addict has no glory
A life full of pain, shame and regret
Never with nothing and always in debt
I took the drug just to get high
But keep going back for a next try
As soon as its gone, I start to rattle
My drug addict life is a losing battle
Before I knew it, I was classed as an addict
Needing to feed my disgusting habit
Starting to rattle and needing to score
My job and my savings existed no more
Everyday is now about graft
To feed my habit, how stupid & daft
I beg and I steal or even just borrow
A waste of a life, just full of sorrow
You lose all your loved ones and even my pride
Labelled a junkie and never can hide
First its the foil and second the pin
Sticking myself til the blood rushed in
The human body cant take this much
And finding a vein becomes real tough
Abcesses and clots are all on the cards
As well as a cell and even the guards
So its 3rd time lucky as Ive already said
Before I lose you or just end up dead
So never again will I have one more hit
Clear of the meth and clean of that ****
I said this before but I want us to last
The lies and the drugs are all in the past
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Old 06-10-2012, 08:35 AM
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For him, I hope that regardless of what happens, that he means it.

For you, I wish you peace whether he means it or not.

gentle hugs
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Old 06-10-2012, 10:12 AM
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Funny how I'm in Liverpool but all the terms are the same, I always think of graft as being a local type word! Like KE I really hope he means it, I guess only time will tell. Have you been to an FA meeting yet? Are you considering it?
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Old 06-10-2012, 12:01 PM
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lol @ graft!
no ive not been to a meeting yet, i dont know where to start to be honest
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Old 06-11-2012, 01:24 PM
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This poem got me in tears, I wish my boyfriend could say that to me,
I hope he means it, good luck
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Old 06-11-2012, 01:32 PM
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I have no idea wha graft means......I am pretty sure that is a good thing.

But would someone please tell me?
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Old 06-11-2012, 02:31 PM
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in the US graft = corruption
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Old 06-11-2012, 02:46 PM
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Here graft is like illegal work usually, you know selling drugs on a round for someone, selling knock off designer stuff, being the gardener for someone's crop, right up to burglaries and armed robberies.
I attend families anonymous, there is no NarAnon in the UK. It's mostly mums of addicts but to me addiction is addiction and I get a LOT out of attending the meetings and working the 12 steps with my sponsor. Even just having a friendly understanding voice on the end of the phone. My ex is a heroin addict, we're not together any more but I'm still trying to put my head back together after almost 4 years and a child together. You can look online for a meeting, try here Meetings in the UK - Famanon
Or there is a forum which will help you find a meeting too.
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Old 06-11-2012, 04:14 PM
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Thanks windmills, I will defo be looking into it and going asap! And tweety, thank you, he sends me things like this everyday. He sounds like he means it this time so fingers crossed. He's 49 days clean so far. Long may it continue as I'm not sticking around for next time x
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