Windmills

I am so lucky today. I have a beautiful daughter who is worth all the heartbreak in all the land to protect her. I have a lovely home and I was very lucky to get it from a housing association- for those who aren't in the UK, that means its about 40% cheaper rent that a private landlord, and my repairs etc are done immediately. I have an incredible sponsor, I seriously would have been face down in a ditch if I hadn't met her in January. I have the services of a DV centre, which is amazing and I LOVE. I have my best friend back- we lost touch for 2-3 years because of my shame and guilt and largely the actions of my ex to isolate me. I have my health, which is wonderful because for years I struggled with bulimia and self harm. I have a program which is really helping me to grow as a person. I have my sister who is like a best friend. I have lovely, kind grandparents who are in their 70s and still came over to help me move house. I have my safety, I can go to bed tonight and know I am not going to be woken by a knife wielding raging lunatic. I can wake up in the morning without fear or anxiety or panic attacks. I can do what I want, say what I want and live how I want to. I can talk to my neighbours?! Today I spent an hour outside talking to the lady next door while our daughters played together. I used to avoid my neighbours eyes because they knew and I knew what was going on in my home. I can phone someone when I need help or a friendly voice. I can play with my daughter without worrying about waking my ex up from his drug induced coma style sleep.
I'm lucky. I don't have much right now in material terms but I have everything I need. I am do so grateful to FA, to my higher power and to SR. I'm exactly where I need to be, exactly when I need to be here.

LoveMeNow

Great post Windmills!

So many blessings await you! Stay strong and true to you beautiful self and little Daisy! God Bless!

GoldfishSyn

Great thread! Happiness is all about perspective. This is a great reminder that we all have things to be thankful for!

Stayingtough

I'm so happy for you! I hope your proud of the life you have and the strength you carry. This brought tears to my eyes, good for you windmills

itsanewday2011

Beautiful. Thank you.

Windmills

Thank you I know I still have a long way to go but at this point people are noticing- the manager of my DV centre commented on how I can make/keep eye contact during a conversation, and I can actually participate in that conversation! Its been about 4 months since I met her I guess, and I have worked HARD in those months!
You know, I used to think happiness was about money and material items. Then I thought happy was about my ex changing into the wonderful man I 'knew' he could be. Now happiness looks like watching The Little Mermaid at 7am and eating toast with Daisy knowing we can go back to bed for a nap soon (It's a bank holiday here for the jubilee!)