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Old 06-03-2012, 05:08 PM
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I love alcohol or, more specifically, I love it until I hate it. Once upon a time it calmed me down but that seems like a billion years ago. Now, I'm through the roof when I drink. WHO DOES THAT?!

My da is dying from complications related to alcoholism so I should have been more vigilent when I started imbiding. My boyfriend hates my drinking so I do it when he's not around, not that he's so stupid as to be unaware why I'm so rushed to leave on Sunday evenings.

Anybooze, I ended up in the Psych ER last Sunday after a less than fabulous evening of crappy wine. Like I said, alcohol makes me incredibly hyper. I've been referred to an addiction specialist as well as an adult (when did that happen?) psychiatric clinic. Here's hoping.

No AA this time. I went 4 months with....that and it was one of the worst experiences of my life. I'm not joking. I've talked with my rabbi about my drinking and she was less than surprised that I had difficulty with "The Rooms." If it works for y'all, right on, but please save the AA preaching.

Any support would be great.
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Old 06-03-2012, 05:12 PM
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welcome. Glad you are here. You must find the program that works for you. No judgment from anyone here. Everyone I have ever met here has been supportive and encouraging of me and my getting clean.

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Old 06-03-2012, 05:24 PM
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Originally Posted by bronzepinkblue View Post
I love alcohol or, more specifically, I love it until I hate it. Once upon a time it calmed me down but that seems like a billion years ago. Now, I'm through the roof when I drink. WHO DOES THAT?!
Alcoholics...That's who. Welcome to SR bronzepinkblue....I won't preach to you about AA...But I will tell you this problem we have does not get better with time....I'm living proof of that...Lucky to be living proof. If I were you I wouldn't worry about what you don't want to do and put some serious thought into what you do want to do. Have you tried any other programs or methods?...Rational Recovery?...AVRT?...SMART?....Lifering?...Maybe you can just use this site for support....I don't know. But I would look into something.
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Old 06-03-2012, 05:30 PM
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Hello and welcome! Even though you had a bad experience with AA there are definately tools from it that can help you. Being accountable (moral inventory), forgiving+surrendering, and making ammends come to mind. I've had to do those things constantly to keep myself from drinking. Best wishes to you!
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Old 06-03-2012, 05:34 PM
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Hi bronzepinkblue - welcome

There's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the main players (including but not limited to AA):

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.

I've relied on SR - it's worked for me
The main thing tho - whatever you decide to do - is do something.
In my experience, inaction just leads to more drinking....

You'll find a lot of support here

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Old 06-03-2012, 05:35 PM
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Hi Bronzepinkblue,
Alcohol made me hyper as well, along with a lot of other things... It made me "the life of the party" everyone loved me, except for ME! I allowed alcohol to take a lot from me, but everyday sober I slowly get some of the importantly things back. Good luck on whatever program you choose! This is about YOU, not anyone else.
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Old 06-03-2012, 05:42 PM
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Welcome to SR bronzepinkblue

SR is a great place to be. There are members here that use a variety of ways to get and stay sober.

I get all wonkey when I drink, hyper and wacko is my reaction to alcohol. Just cant do that anymore because I do end up in the psychiatric clinic...the lock-down part of it that is...Yikes!

Know there are many ways to live alcohol free. I found for myself that learning and practicing recovery skills like CBT, DBT and REBT tools (psychotherapy related practices) I got better at living free from the influence of alcohol and (for me) drugs.
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Old 06-03-2012, 07:54 PM
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Welcome bronzepinkblue!

This is a great place.... I've gotten so much inspiration here and ideas about how to stay sober (as well as support, obviously)! I really didn't think I could give up alcohol, but I'm so glad I did!

Keep reading and posting!
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Old 06-03-2012, 07:55 PM
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Welcome to SR!

I'm sorry your experience with AA was not positive. AA is a spiritual program of recovery and does not have issues with any religion. I know this, so do many people I know who are still sober today because of the 12 steps of AA (it's not the meetings, it's working the steps that is the solution).

I hope you can find something that works for you. Have you read Rational Recovery, Women for Sobriety, or any other program of recovery? Something will help you out!

Glad you are here!
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Old 06-03-2012, 08:04 PM
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OK, so you didn't like AA. You aren't the only one to feel that way, and many of those who did feel as you changed their minds, went back in 'the rooms and are now securely and serenely sober.

I am not an AA person, and used other tools and methods to make it possible for me to be securely sober. I think what is most important is your commitment to never take a drink again, not a drop, not a sniff. This leaves it up to you to make that decision as easy as possible, to allow you to see your way through each moment without that stuff. I hope you make that choice, and look until you find what you need to live easily with that choice.
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Old 06-04-2012, 06:22 AM
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Welcome. A great site here. Lots of support. Some will rub you the wrong way. Take it in the spirit it was intended--to help you get sober.

Originally Posted by bronzepinkblue View Post
No AA this time. I went 4 months with....that and it was one of the worst experiences of my life. I'm not joking.
Worse than ending up in a Psych ER for drinking?

Many people find it's easier to quit AA than it is to quit drinking. Hope your addiction specialist gets you on a recovery plan that is more appealing than drinking.

Again, welcome and good luck.
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Old 06-04-2012, 06:53 AM
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BPB -
I am currently an AA'er - after 2 years of railing against the program - I fought it tooth and nail. I am not preaching AA here - but I will say that I tried for two years on my own to sober up - and I couldn't do it alone. I live in a big city and finally found a room or two that I could stomach. For me the AA meetings are a way to keep it at the front of my mind that I CAN'T drink - I make it a point to make a meeting every day whether I like it or not - I think the act of making something else more important than drinking is the key - could be AA - or the gym - or volunteering - or whatever - it's the obligation for me more than anything. When I was drinking I wasn't accountable for ANYTHING.
I hope you find something that works for you
Again - I AM NOT preaching AA
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