Lost3000

I can hardly believe it.

As I look back on the past few months I realize --- I was a real go-getter and I've slowed down.

I'm absolutely stressed to the MAX at work - which is a bit temporary as I have two trials next week - so this is normal for work.

BUT, after having my first sober vacation, I've slacked big time on my recovery work. No BB reading, no sponsor meetings, no AA mtgs.

This is realize is an issue and I'm doing my damnest to rectify it without completely losing my mind at work.

So first things first, get my work finished, get to a mtg hopefully, and meet sponsor tonight.

Thanks to everyone here for all of the thoughtful responses to my posts filled with agonizing issues, not so agonizing issues, happiness and lows. Group hug everyone!!

gordano

congrats on 5 months! When I was drinking and using, that amount of time sober seemed impossible.

foodie1

Wow way to go on 5 months!! And really well done on recognizing how easily complacency sneaks up on all of us.

sugarbear1

Congratulations on 5 months!!!!!

Lost3000

Thanks everyone! Complacency. Yes, sort of. I feel really overwhelmed at work and can't seem to get enough done fast enough. Like I said, it's the nature of my work. Trials are very stressful and to have 2 in one week is a lot! I've made a step though, in canceling a work lunch to get to my mtg. I'm also meeting with my sponsor tonight.

EXM6

Good job on the five months!! It's inspiring to hear how well others are doing. I don't think I've ever 'really' made it to five months, aside from being pregnant and having my daughter.

It's great that you recognize not doing the things that are helping you stay sober. I'd have to say that's probably a huge step in recovery. It's so easy to slough things off and be like "I'm busy, I'll get to it" and you haven't. Good for you!

Lost3000

Thanks Ex!!! But, I sort of have sloughed off. I guess I am aware of it, so that counts. I AM following thru today. No matter what!

soberjim

Hey Lost... Congratulations on 5 months! Excellent! Hope the rest of the week goes well for you.. Hang tough!

Jim

Lost3000

Thanks Jim --- I'm trying to hang tough!!! Mostly hanging headachy, grouchy, etc. LOL.

Veritas1

At the last meeting I went to, I realized how many new people were there. So many people to help. Even if we are not ready to sponsor...it is good for us to be there to stand with them.

They were talking about how 12th step work can be coming to a meeting to be present as a member, shows newcomers that there is hope. We are there.

Can you imagine if everyone got well and didn't show up anymore?

Those would be some empty rooms.

Thank you, as you have inspired me to visit my home group soon.

Congratulations for 5 months!

nel68

Congrats to you Lost!!! Way to go girlie!!

least

Congrats on five months sober!!

keepfinding2

Way to go.

Lost3000

I remember being told, and reading, that we are never "fixed". You are never "done" with recovery. It makes total sense to me, as while I was doing very well, feeling great, the last 2 weeks have been extremely hard for me, and a reminder that I'm not fixed.

sissy07

Lost3000,

Being in legal myself, I can understand how other things get swept under the rug when everything at work is so time-sensitive! I need to get more active regarding my sobriety also.

Congratulations on your 5 months sobriety!

Lost3000

It's complete madness at work right now. But I know it'll come to an end, eventually! Thanks for the well wishes.

WingsFan13

WOOT! Congrats! Here's to many many more

Lost3000

Thanks!! I made it to my meeting, got my chip!!! Next to my sponsor meeting. Wow this day has been crazy.

Impurrfect

Congratulations on 5 months!!

Hugs and prayers,

Amy

OneLessLonely

Congratulations, very inspiring!