DefofLov

Hi Everyone!

It was hard. Damn hard. I wanted to roll over and go back to sleep. But I got up and I'm going to eat some breakfast and go work out. I have been getting up everyday but this morning it was tough.

I'm grieving and mourning a multitude of things right now. I'm not sure why. I think it's because I stopped running from myself if that makes any sense. No more losing myself in a Codie relationship or friendship.

What a process.

Love,

Lily

sugarbear1

Why not write a letter to this loss? Either put it away or burn it and say a prayer.

Move on. You are so worth it!

Hugs,

DefofLov

I'm doing my best.

*hugs*

lillamy

You know how they say "one day at a time"?
Some days, it's ten minutes at a time.
And that's OK, too. The smallest steps will take you to where you're going, if you take enough of them.

Hugs. You did good.

madhusband

Hugs, well done that must have been so hard xx

SoaringSpirits

This is so true. In the beginning, when my AH and I separated, I found it almost impossible to function, I was so depressed. I lived in increments of 15 minutes. I'd say to myself "take 15 minutes and clean up the kitchen." Oftentimes, I'd feel better after that, so would take another 15 and run some laundry. Then I might feel like exercising. Baby steps. Try to put one foot in front of the other. Hugs to you, and hang in there. It does get easier, slowly, over time.

Katiekate

big :ghug3

lillamy

Me too. I wasn't depressed, but felt paralyzed. I lived by checklists. Dealing with practical problems and logistics (What will I cook for dinner? Let's iron some pillowcases!) kept me from drowning in the emotional turmoil.

DefofLov

I made it to the gym. Did Pilates for the first time and then I did 35 minutes of intense aerobics. I'm surviving. My counselor told me I don't give myself enough credit for surviving. I think she is right.

I even laughed a few times today watching my show. Reached out to friends just to say hi. I don't really want them to know what is I'm feeling. Partly because my emotions have been used as a weapon against me and also because I don't want to bring them to Angst Town with me.

Thank you all so much. For your comments, concern, and acknowledgement.

Love,

Lily

stepsforward

TIME - give yourself time Hugs to you

MsPINKAcres

Many times I got up, looked in the mirror and said
"Ms. PINK, you & your HP made it thru yesterday, y'all can make it thru today"

Keep hanging in there ~ we are praying & cheering you on!

PINK HUGS,
Rita

changeschoices

Please know you are not alone. And that it WILL get better. And until then, go easy on yourself.

I wasn't doing great the first month after I had AX move out--weepy, tired, stressed. I ate a lot of frozen dinners and let the house get messier than usual--I'm usually OCD so that was a big change, lol! But it was the best I could do and I just accepted it.

After a month or so, I knew I had to get back on track so I've been getting organized again and feeling better. Setting small tasks and achieving them makes me feel better. I'm not 100% but I'm much better. It is a terrible loss for me, in spite of me wanting the relationship to end.

DefofLov

Dealing with loss is very tough, but it is a necessary step. Thank you for your support. I truly appreciate you.

lillamy

Took me a long time to realize that. That even if you know it's the right thing to do, it's a grieving process.

You made it to the gym and through the day! Go you! :ghug3