zorah

I'm so close to using. I was close last night but left a message on my sponsor's phone and exercised. This is progress for me. I thought I would wake up feeling better but it's all back again--the voice saying "what's the use? you're never going to get better anyway. You can't tolerate this pain for much longer...." My problem is that since stopping--19th of April--there has been no improvement in how I feel; in fact, the opposite. I'm exploding inside, crying, on my knees praying to whatever God is out there, and fearing that I'm going to give in and use again.



Zorah

Wellsc61

You are forgetting that you did not use and that is a victory over your addiction....everyday that you stay sober is a good day, it might now feel good today but you are doing it and you should be so proud of yourself.

You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you..

Sapling

Just don't pick up....Keep praying and call your sponsor again....If you don't get an answer...Call someone else on your list of numbers...If you don't have that....Hang out here. Every day you don't use you are getting better...Don't give up what you got.

Db1105

Do the same thing today that you did yesterday. The bottom line is that you did not use. It will get easier in time.

Anna

Exercising is good. Once you stop drinking, there are usually other changes that you need to make in your life in order to begin to recover. You can learn to deal with the emotions that you`re feeling and it will get easier.

omegasupreme

Where are you in the steps?

JustARide

From what I understand, it can sometimes take a while to show improvement in how you feel.
Keep it out of your system and give your body & mind more time to get well.

thesun

Maybe consider seeing a doctor, who could prescribe some medication if you are depressed.

zorah

Thanks everyone. You made me feel better. It's easy to forget when I'm in pain that the main point is I didn't use. My sponsor left me a phone message that my calling her and exercising are a huge improvement. I took positive actions, contrary to my usual, to get myself through the craving. We're going to see each other at a meeting tonight. thank God! I feel so shaky.

Zorah

Sapling

Good for you Zorah....Have a good meeting!

thesun

Well done for not giving in to the craving..

Dee74

I'm glad you didn't give in Zorah

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Pandora1

Good for you, Zorah! Remember this cravings are like a roller coaster and the soon the ride will come to an end.

Have a great meeting tonight.

soberred

Great job for staying strong Zorah

sugarbear1

I felt like you did in the beginning of recovery. You can get through this.

I strongly suggest you work those steps, that is your new solution!

I will have one year in one week and I never thought I could do this! I know you are stronger than I am. Stay stopped, work the steps, get to a meeting and help another person. It is in helping others that I have been able to gain my own strength to continue forward.

well done on not picking up. YOU are worth it!

storm1230

I am so proud of you! Remember just for today.....you did it!!!