aeo1313

I am about 36 hours clean from hydro and had my last drink a week ago. I called in sick today at work, just coulodn't seem to get up and go. I went to a 12:15 big book study meeting and cried on the way there, through the meeting, and one the way home. I then called the woman who I had asked to sponsor me months ago but then I never called her again. She will be my sponsor again and we are meeting tomorrow at a meeting and she is giving me step 1 worksheets. I cried all through our conversation. I am so tired. This feels so vastly different from any of the other times I attempted to quit in the last 5 months. This feel like it is it. I have given up fighting, I fully accept I am an addict/alcoholic. I am not on the fence anymore. My white flag is up. I surrender.

GirlFromCO

You're a strong woman, aeo. Take care of yourself.

gordano

I've gone through opiate withdrawal many times. The tears are apart of the withdrawal and its the drug trying to convince you that you cant live without it. Don't give in. Although the emotions feel real - they are not - always remember this.

Do you have a detox plan or are you going cold turkey?

SeekSobriety

If you have not already done this, Remember to make sure to speak with your primary care doctor about your stopping taking of the narcotics and the alcohol.

Just my two cents
Congrats on your decision and I wish you only the best!

gordano

I have to head out, but if you haven't gone through opiate withdrawal before , please know that day 3-4 will be the worst and that it may take a week before you can get back to feeling normal. Of course, this all depends on how heavy of a user you were. Please take care of yourself and PM me if you have any questions. :ghug3

instant

The power of total and unconditional surrender is amazingly powerful.

Sapling

I agree....My prayers are with you aeo...That this is your last attempt.

Dee74

yep...the day I finally accepted my reality, everything changed A.
You can do this

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