Riseagainstfan5

Hi.. I'm Matt i'm 21 years old I need help I think i realize now.. It's become a damn gorilla I have on my back..

I have a problem with any hard drug really and alcohol Opiates are by far and away my favorite.. reason being when Im smoking Crack or doing any stimulant really I get super super paranoid..

matter of fact when i was smoking rock last night... I ended up thinking the black dude I was with was going to shoot me.. so I left like 70 bucks worth of dope just sitting there. And ran off... (don't know if anyone else has ever done this.. I know i'm not the only one who reacts badly to stimulants)

Alcohol well lets just say im a mean drunk an abrasive *******.

Opiates I get all the euphoria i'm looking for but im relaxed and I'm nice to everyone.. seems like perfect drug right guys haha.. cept for the OD factor and all.. But.. whos worried about that right?

Dee74

Welcome Matt
You'll find a lot of support here - and a lot of ideas too.

Are you open to the idea of face to face support - NA etc?

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Riseagainstfan5

I think i'm pretty much open to anything At this point.. my dad died from an OD i'm really not wanting to share the same fate or something worse.. IE getting shot over something drug related.

Dee74

I'm not in NA myself - I'm am alcoholic - but here's the main site
www.NA.org - the website for the Fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous

There are non 12 step programmes too like SMART
Self Help Substance Abuse &amp Addiction Recovery | SMART Recovery®

you may also be interested in checking out our substance forum as well

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Riseagainstfan5

Oh I'm definitely an alcoholic as well.. just tend to favor the Narcotics.

stillsleeping

Hey Riseagain, welcome to SR dude

Really nice to meetcha. It's pretty quiet this time of day cos most of the Americans and Canadians are still in bed, so do some reading while you can. Look forward to seeing you around.

And, yes to the paranoia. I used to get really trippy on speed and cannabis, but not since my 20s. Old habits...

Still
xx