My eyes and heart are opening.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Dec 2006
Posts: 352
My eyes and heart are opening.
Hello SR community.
Today marks 120 days, 4 months sober for me, and I would never have believed it on my first days, but life is becoming better, more rewarding as my life goes on uninebriated. Its like I am seeing things a little more clearly now, and with that, my heart is feeling again. Happiness and real laughter does come from within, and of course, positive feelings are often opposed with negative ones, and I feel those as well, and even those negative feelings, reality based, are vivid and new. No longer numbed by intoxicants, its like my inner self is slowly awakening, learning this world through new found eyes, walking on stumbly legs along a better path. When I embarked on this sober path, I did so out of desperation to quit existing as I had been, barely alive, bitter, self hating, negativity. I didn't actually believe that things would become much better, I just wanted to stop the downward spiral. Today, I am truly grateful for my sobriety. I am finding enjoyment in places I never even knew existed before. I dont need to chase empty promises in my endless glasses of alcohol. I think SR and all its fine participants for revealing their own experience, so that I believe now that it truly does just keep getting better and better.. Onward and Upward.
Today marks 120 days, 4 months sober for me, and I would never have believed it on my first days, but life is becoming better, more rewarding as my life goes on uninebriated. Its like I am seeing things a little more clearly now, and with that, my heart is feeling again. Happiness and real laughter does come from within, and of course, positive feelings are often opposed with negative ones, and I feel those as well, and even those negative feelings, reality based, are vivid and new. No longer numbed by intoxicants, its like my inner self is slowly awakening, learning this world through new found eyes, walking on stumbly legs along a better path. When I embarked on this sober path, I did so out of desperation to quit existing as I had been, barely alive, bitter, self hating, negativity. I didn't actually believe that things would become much better, I just wanted to stop the downward spiral. Today, I am truly grateful for my sobriety. I am finding enjoyment in places I never even knew existed before. I dont need to chase empty promises in my endless glasses of alcohol. I think SR and all its fine participants for revealing their own experience, so that I believe now that it truly does just keep getting better and better.. Onward and Upward.
Congrats on your sober time! 
SR Fan
Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
Posts: 7,910
So happy for you! Congratulations on 4 months! I think your description of drinking as "chasing empty promises" is so perfect. When we're in the chase, we can't see how much of life is passing us by. Thanks for the inspiration this morning!
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
