SSIL75

It was beautiful yesterday and my family (husband.. 3 small children) were all outside. Husband was drinking beer and I had mint iced tea I had made with fresh mint. It was v. good.

I was drinking it and my son came and tried some and it brought me instantly back to when I was still drinking...one time I was giving sobriety a go and had lemonade outside. I was sitting in the same spot as yesterday. And I remember my son tentatively asking if he could try my lemonade and feeling so proud that he could actually drink my drink.

I didn't stay sober, then. But I remember it like it was yesterday. A voice in my head screaming "this is how it should be" and then as I allowed myself to slip back into the comforting, familiar murkiness of alcoholism.

But I did get it, eventually. 20 months now. It feels normal. It IS normal.

Finally

Charon

Congratulations! It does feel great, doesn't it? Way to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ReadyAndAble

Awesome post, SSIL! What a great way to start my week. And I'm so glad this is in newcomers section. So many of us go through that early period of wishing we were "normal", yet abstinence is normal. It's how we come into the world, how we spend our childhoods, and from a biological and emotional standpoint, the only "normal" state of being. It's amazing when normal finally feels normal, isn't it?

Spinach

That's fantastic.
John.

Dee74

great post SSIL75 - thanks

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BASEjumper

All the little things...congratulations SS

Anna

That's so good to hear!

Hevyn

That made me smile . I'm so happy for you.

debsam

What a fabulous moment for you to reflect on....great moment for your son too

Scolova

WTG & great post SSIL