coming_clean

sober.

I just found out...
(i'm 28)
That my best childhood friend, from my 4th till my 18th....has autism. No wonder I always thought he was 'cold', and he just did not care.
And another close friend from the past, six or seven years.
Has been sexually abused in his childhood. No wonder...he became who he was and is.

I actually could tell, without knowing, who it was. Who molested him. Just a hunch. Guessed it right. Straight away.

My problem aint addiction,
Mine has been a spiritual one,
Soms of the folks that have been reading my stuff here,
Will maybe understand, or start to sooner or later,
Or not, Aint so relevant, it's about my survival.

I'm just...(hyper).sensitive. For people, vibes, emotions, pain, suffering, joy, everything.

My underlying problem....is seeing things right ....way too often. Almost always. Feeling things right. The world aint a pretty place.

Well.

It is.

But....sometimes it's horrible too....kinda fifty fifty.

I sense both. More then the average person. Way more. This makes it look sometimes that I react like a borderliner, or someone who's manic. Or ADD or ADHD or sometimes even autism (blocking things out).
But.....

i've got my tools now. Buddhism, and the TAO.

(me a year ago)

'I don't need a shrink, I need a spiritual teacher'

Dee74

sometimes the worlds not a nice place cc - but I figure that makes it all the more important that good people stick around, be aware and let their presence be felt and their voices heard

D

coming_clean

i'm working on compassion...



taken my vows to save humanity, even tough it is impossible.



gives me peace of mind a bit

coming_clean

Hey D. It could be....that i'm going to quote you on this one day

I like it.