100 days
100 days
So last night I began to wonder if I was going to soon surpass the sobriety time I reached 3 yrs ago. 3 yrs ago I quit drinking, but I know now it was for my husband. We got into a very bad fight and in my desperation to save my marriage I told him I'd quit drinking. After a few days, my husband told me that he didn't think I had a problem, that I just needed to cut down. He sweetened the deal by saying, why not just quit until our upcoming vacation, and then drink then?
Sounded great to me!!!
So I drank away on my vacation and came back to live, no, not sober, but drunk again. I slowly but surely drank my way right back to where I was. That was when I realized I was an alcoholic.
I quit Jan. 1 and am not going to look back. All this time I was glorifying those sober days in my head. I thought I was sober for 4 mos. I found out last night that I was wrong! So wrong!
I found a journal entry wherein I counted my sober days. 65 days. That's how long I remained sober. So then I calculated the days sober up to today. 100 days!!!!!!!! I have now been sober longer than ever before, before I started drinking at 15 yrs. I cannot believe it. And I feel great. I feel like I'm on a journey.
When I look back at the last few months, I realize I've done some major changes! I read the Big Book, which I never would have done before. I meet once a week with a sponsor. I attend AA mtgs at least once a week, usually more. I meet up with non-drinking friends. I joined a book club. I am about to take my first vacation sober. I feel so strong and happy!!!
And weirdly, my old drinking pals, the ones I work with who sit only right around the corner, haven't said one peep to me. Not hello, not hey where have you been? Nothing, nada. And I have to admit, I kind of like it!!
Who knew. This time I quit for me though. And I think that's the major difference here. I am just so amazed at how things have turned out.
Sounded great to me!!!
So I drank away on my vacation and came back to live, no, not sober, but drunk again. I slowly but surely drank my way right back to where I was. That was when I realized I was an alcoholic.
I quit Jan. 1 and am not going to look back. All this time I was glorifying those sober days in my head. I thought I was sober for 4 mos. I found out last night that I was wrong! So wrong!
I found a journal entry wherein I counted my sober days. 65 days. That's how long I remained sober. So then I calculated the days sober up to today. 100 days!!!!!!!! I have now been sober longer than ever before, before I started drinking at 15 yrs. I cannot believe it. And I feel great. I feel like I'm on a journey.
When I look back at the last few months, I realize I've done some major changes! I read the Big Book, which I never would have done before. I meet once a week with a sponsor. I attend AA mtgs at least once a week, usually more. I meet up with non-drinking friends. I joined a book club. I am about to take my first vacation sober. I feel so strong and happy!!!
And weirdly, my old drinking pals, the ones I work with who sit only right around the corner, haven't said one peep to me. Not hello, not hey where have you been? Nothing, nada. And I have to admit, I kind of like it!!
Who knew. This time I quit for me though. And I think that's the major difference here. I am just so amazed at how things have turned out.
It's funny, because I wasn't very proud of myself before. And now I am PROUD. And it's not like I'm done. It's ongoing. Thanks Anna!!!
Awesome. Life is yours, every inch of it. There's only one liquid you don't drink. That's all. Just one. The rest of your life awaits you. Freedom, sobriety, good judgement, alertness... the list goes on.
Yep, I'm me. Same loud, funny, sensitive me. I just don't drink booze.
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Hey Lost...great name, by the way. I am so happy for you, that you are happy. I am walking the exact same path with the same time, and I also feel so much better. I hope you have a great vacation, and best thing this time around, you will have actual memories, instead of just photos....thanks for the great Post..
Best wishes to you as I know you've had a hard time recently.
I am so happy for you! Congratulations!
There's quote I like from Morgan Freeman in some movie that I saw (I forgot the movie). He was a dinner guest in someones home and the narrative went something along the lines of, "I no longer think about a glass of wine. I think no more of that bottle on the table than I do about the dog under it."
There's quote I like from Morgan Freeman in some movie that I saw (I forgot the movie). He was a dinner guest in someones home and the narrative went something along the lines of, "I no longer think about a glass of wine. I think no more of that bottle on the table than I do about the dog under it."
I am so happy for you! Congratulations!
There's quote I like from Morgan Freeman in some movie that I saw (I forgot the movie). He was a dinner guest in someones home and the narrative went something along the lines of, "I no longer think about a glass of wine. I think no more of that bottle on the table than I do about the dog under it."
There's quote I like from Morgan Freeman in some movie that I saw (I forgot the movie). He was a dinner guest in someones home and the narrative went something along the lines of, "I no longer think about a glass of wine. I think no more of that bottle on the table than I do about the dog under it."
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