I stopped lurking finally.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
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I stopped lurking finally.
I have been an occasional lurker on this site for awhile now. I finally did it and registered. I guess I got tired of looking through the storefront window and decided to come inside.
I feel like I blew it. I had several weeks of not drinking and felt great, and for some dumb reason last night I wanted beer. I don't know what I was thinking and I got drunk.
I drank my six pack and half of my roommate's too.
I am a binge drinker. I don't drink every day and sometimes go weeks without drinking but when I do often its bad. Its well more than my fair share and I usually wake up (like today) with an ugly hangover and angry at myself.
I am not comfortable with drinking the way I do , I haven't been for a long time.
I come to this site to help me stay with my ideals of living a healthy alcohol free life, but I slip and cannot figure out why.
I tried RR a couple years ago and it worked for me for over a year. Then I got comfortable (lazy?) and slipped again. I have been struggling ever since then to get that "understanding" back.
So, to wrap it up...hi everyone. I love reading all your posts and thank you for so many days of help. I thought I would finally join in.
Brick
I feel like I blew it. I had several weeks of not drinking and felt great, and for some dumb reason last night I wanted beer. I don't know what I was thinking and I got drunk.
I drank my six pack and half of my roommate's too.
I am a binge drinker. I don't drink every day and sometimes go weeks without drinking but when I do often its bad. Its well more than my fair share and I usually wake up (like today) with an ugly hangover and angry at myself.
I am not comfortable with drinking the way I do , I haven't been for a long time.
I come to this site to help me stay with my ideals of living a healthy alcohol free life, but I slip and cannot figure out why.
I tried RR a couple years ago and it worked for me for over a year. Then I got comfortable (lazy?) and slipped again. I have been struggling ever since then to get that "understanding" back.
So, to wrap it up...hi everyone. I love reading all your posts and thank you for so many days of help. I thought I would finally join in.
Brick
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Join Date: Apr 2012
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I haven't actually gotten very far in the Planning department. 
Right now I just plan on not drinking but, I have been trying to do it all on my own and I think I figured out its not working so well.
I have this issue of "WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT YOU ARE REALLY A DRUNK"
I know that sounds so lame and I need to get over it.
Right now I just plan on not drinking but, I have been trying to do it all on my own and I think I figured out its not working so well.
I have this issue of "WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT YOU ARE REALLY A DRUNK"
I know that sounds so lame and I need to get over it.
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Originally Posted by brickthrowing 
I have this issue of "WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT YOU ARE REALLY A DRUNK"
I know that sounds so lame and I need to get over it.
I know that sounds so lame and I need to get over it.
Peace, Love, Sobriety
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Wilmington, DE
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Welcome brick. Don't worry about what other people think of you, let them think what they wish. As long as you are serious about your recovery you shouldn't give a hoot what their opinion is.
Professional Drunk
Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: Toronto
Posts: 465
Hi Brick...I constantly worry about people finding out the extent of my drinking problem. I was always known as a 'party animal', but my friends have no idea that I would lock myself in my apartment and drink gallons of vodka for days on end. The stigma of being a 'drunk' may already be attached to me, but at least I'm not doing anything now to perpetuate that image...
Pa**ot Momma
Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Baltimore, MD
Posts: 149
Welcome.
I definately found trying to do it myself never worked. I have been trying to quit, this time since November 11, couldn't do it. I got out my AA Big Book and looked at the date. I purchased it in June 2009. So really, I have been trying by myself since then. Now going to AA and getting a sponsor, I am finally 16 days sober.
Talk to someone, post here, try AA or whatever works and you CAN DO IT!!!
I definately found trying to do it myself never worked. I have been trying to quit, this time since November 11, couldn't do it. I got out my AA Big Book and looked at the date. I purchased it in June 2009. So really, I have been trying by myself since then. Now going to AA and getting a sponsor, I am finally 16 days sober.
Talk to someone, post here, try AA or whatever works and you CAN DO IT!!!
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Glad you joined us, Brick. I was a binge drinker too once. Over time the binges were more often & lasted longer. Finally, I was a daily drinker. This is our 'progressive disease' taking over. It's wise you're taking a look at this now. Down the line you might lose control over how much and when you drink. It happened to me.
You may have heard it said - it isn't how often you drink, but what happens to you when you do drink. You felt good for those weeks when you didn't have it in your system - so you don't need it to feel happy or enjoy life. I'd say it's not worth the risk to keep playing with it. Good to have you with us - keep talking.
You may have heard it said - it isn't how often you drink, but what happens to you when you do drink. You felt good for those weeks when you didn't have it in your system - so you don't need it to feel happy or enjoy life. I'd say it's not worth the risk to keep playing with it. Good to have you with us - keep talking.
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I have this issue of "WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT YOU ARE REALLY A DRUNK"
What if they find out you used to be a drunk? Isn't that infinately better than the other?
Welcome to the family! :ghug3
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Yes, I think you are right about that Least.Thank you all for such warm welcomes and support. I wish I had pulled my head out and done this a long time ago.
I'm not just reading, I am actually participating!
And I like it!
Its good to talk about it, which is something I really never did.
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