jolinda

Went outside today to work, its always helped me to dig in the dirt. Finished walkway in front of house ,getting ready for inspection. Busted up a bunch of concrete with a sledge hammer, man did that feel good. Joe my a/d was suppose to have finished before he went on another binge, and i told him not to come back. Sooooooo , guess who had to finish it. Actually it felt real good getting some anger out. Anyway, going to my 2nd meeting tonight and im hoping its better than the first. Maybe im not getting it. They have only been meeting for a very short time maybe thats it . Dont know, but im willing to give it another try. Maybe i need to seek another group, maybe its me.Wish me luck

Windmills

My group has only been running for 2 months- I was at the first meeting. It's amazing and I chose it over the other meeting in my city which has been running over 10 years. You get out of it what you choose to take. It's very overwhelming and crazy sounding at first, and I personally think that newcomers are so emotionally wrecked that it takes weeks for the fog to clear enough to start understanding the program. Keep at it, it works if you work it

Chino

jolinda, good for you! My release is breaking glass. I hurl it like a wannabe mlb pitcher lol.

Hang in there, maybe find another meeting if this one doesn't work for you.

faithfully

Sounds like a productive day and I always find it's good to get things done, now if only I had the energy! Keep up with the meetings, I've been to about four naranon meetings however, I find I am better with NA and AA, I am going to try alanon. I have always heard something I can relate to in meetings no matter what. It's funny I tend to get my back up in naranon meetings more than NA or AA meetings. I went to a coda meeting and never went back. I am going to try to work through the steps on this forum for codependents and just picked up a book called the language of letting go by melody beattie which is like a daily meditation book on codependency. I am an alcoholic/addict/codependent/ so I have a lot of different avenues I can go with 12 step groups and I can pray to for help. I'm still sick as heck though. And though I am making OK headway with my own addictions. I am much slower at headway with my codependency. Keep at it, and keep coming back.