good morning...
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good morning...
this is my fourth day completely sober, no drugs, no alcohol, no sigs, no nothing....
I slept 6,5 hours
Feel kinda woozy but it's oke.
I'm grateful to be here today...
Proberbly detox euforia but I love myself this website and all the wonderful visitors here.
*hug*
I slept 6,5 hours
Feel kinda woozy but it's oke.
I'm grateful to be here today...
Proberbly detox euforia but I love myself this website and all the wonderful visitors here.
*hug*
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small update...
i've read a lot about the tao the last year.
Assesed for myself what causes friction,
1. my field of career
2. my addiction
3. bad vibe people
so I....
1. i'm getting re-schooled, i've got a college degree, what i'm doing now is a lot.....less/easier/lower in level.....but a lot higher in my hart
No more selfhurting by doing something I hate.
2. weezed down the last......year or so....first alcohol, then harddrugs, then sigarettes, then weed, now nothing (!)
3. I have my familiy, two friends who I speak with on the phone and once a couple of weeks go for coffee or something, that's it, that's enough
i've read a lot about the tao the last year.
Assesed for myself what causes friction,
1. my field of career
2. my addiction
3. bad vibe people
so I....
1. i'm getting re-schooled, i've got a college degree, what i'm doing now is a lot.....less/easier/lower in level.....but a lot higher in my hart
No more selfhurting by doing something I hate.
2. weezed down the last......year or so....first alcohol, then harddrugs, then sigarettes, then weed, now nothing (!)
3. I have my familiy, two friends who I speak with on the phone and once a couple of weeks go for coffee or something, that's it, that's enough
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I see you're Dutch.
I've enjoyed touring around your beautiful country a few times. Love the Kuckenhof flower festival, your beach towns and the wonderful big towns. Pretty active AA community all over, with some cool annual retreat conventions where they boat out and take over a whole island. You're fortunate to have that available to you, if you should choose to show up and join in.
Go Orange!
I've enjoyed touring around your beautiful country a few times. Love the Kuckenhof flower festival, your beach towns and the wonderful big towns. Pretty active AA community all over, with some cool annual retreat conventions where they boat out and take over a whole island. You're fortunate to have that available to you, if you should choose to show up and join in.
Go Orange!
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I share an interest in the TAO
In just a few words it can tell us so much about how to live.
This is my favorite passage:
"Live in accordance with the nature of things
Build your house on solid ground
Keep your mind still
When giving, be kind
When speaking, be truthful
When ruling, be just
When working, be one-pointed
When acting, remember – timing is everything
One who lives in accordance with nature does not go against the way of things
He moves in harmony with the present moment always knowing the truth of just what to do."
May this be the case with you.
I have ties to Cadzand. Best wishes.
In just a few words it can tell us so much about how to live.
This is my favorite passage:
"Live in accordance with the nature of things
Build your house on solid ground
Keep your mind still
When giving, be kind
When speaking, be truthful
When ruling, be just
When working, be one-pointed
When acting, remember – timing is everything
One who lives in accordance with nature does not go against the way of things
He moves in harmony with the present moment always knowing the truth of just what to do."
May this be the case with you.
I have ties to Cadzand. Best wishes.
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Originally Posted by langkah 
I see you're Dutch.
I've enjoyed touring around your beautiful country a few times. Love the Kuckenhof flower festival, your beach towns and the wonderful big towns. Pretty active AA community all over, with some cool annual retreat conventions where they boat out and take over a whole island. You're fortunate to have that available to you, if you should choose to show up and join in.
Go Orange!
I've enjoyed touring around your beautiful country a few times. Love the Kuckenhof flower festival, your beach towns and the wonderful big towns. Pretty active AA community all over, with some cool annual retreat conventions where they boat out and take over a whole island. You're fortunate to have that available to you, if you should choose to show up and join in.
Go Orange!
thank you
well....My DOC is weed, so i'm in a beautifull country were I can buy al the cookie dough I want to....
However....from a month from now...u need a pass to buy to, some sort of registration...
Now...i'm kinda a off the grid guy...could call me a social-anarchist,
my dad calls me a seeker of absolute freedom...
furthermore, im a guy of principals....
registration isn't a part of that
I went to all three coffeeshops in my town this weekend, and forced them to refuse me from now on. To have a headstart, in a month i can't buy it anymore, don't want to be on a list somewere as a drugs user
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Originally Posted by awuh1
I share an interest in the TAO
In just a few words it can tell us so much about how to live.
This is my favorite passage:
"Live in accordance with the nature of things
Build your house on solid ground
Keep your mind still
When giving, be kind
When speaking, be truthful
When ruling, be just
When working, be one-pointed
When acting, remember – timing is everything
One who lives in accordance with nature does not go against the way of things
He moves in harmony with the present moment always knowing the truth of just what to do."
May this be the case with you.
I have ties to Cadzand. Best wishes.
In just a few words it can tell us so much about how to live.
This is my favorite passage:
"Live in accordance with the nature of things
Build your house on solid ground
Keep your mind still
When giving, be kind
When speaking, be truthful
When ruling, be just
When working, be one-pointed
When acting, remember – timing is everything
One who lives in accordance with nature does not go against the way of things
He moves in harmony with the present moment always knowing the truth of just what to do."
May this be the case with you.
I have ties to Cadzand. Best wishes.
I did my first steps on the Cadzand beach!!
my family lives in that small region there...beuatifull isn't it
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Death comes in many forms, but it's hard to imagine a worse fate than to wake up with bleary, bllodshot eyes, look in the mirror and recoil at how we look, check our wallet to see the only things left are dust and old barroom receipts. Then we pick up the phone to call a couple people whom we were with the night prior, desperately hoping we didn't alienate the entire community, family members especially, only to find that some just hang up, tired of hearing and dealing with the bs we spew to cover our inappropriate behavior. That's what I call a death of the soul, or at least a darn good beating of our emotional ties to life. Sometimes death is in the form of those lost eyes of our families, looking into our parent's, or spouse's or children's eyes only to see the absolute defeat they feel toward us coupled with total despair and frustration. Relationships die, friendships die and family ties die off one-by-one as we progress toward total insanity.
Yes, death comes in many forms and is always awaiting the next guest to the misery and the end.
Death can also come to the addiction cycle if we are determined to fight for life with all we've got and most often that's not enough, we need outside help till we become stronger. It's suicide to try to overcome cancer by treating it yourself most of the time, and to many alcoholics, outside help is the only way to humble us enough to want to live our lives differently. Over time the change becomes total, but never complete. We eliminate the booze only to discover we've just begun dealing with the problem.
It's great that you're here and asking for help and that may possibly be the lifeline tossed to you while drowning in the open sea of active abuse. Stick around and keep asking, for I've heard often that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. That's proven true multiple times in my life, so keep seeking.
Yes, death comes in many forms and is always awaiting the next guest to the misery and the end.
Death can also come to the addiction cycle if we are determined to fight for life with all we've got and most often that's not enough, we need outside help till we become stronger. It's suicide to try to overcome cancer by treating it yourself most of the time, and to many alcoholics, outside help is the only way to humble us enough to want to live our lives differently. Over time the change becomes total, but never complete. We eliminate the booze only to discover we've just begun dealing with the problem.
It's great that you're here and asking for help and that may possibly be the lifeline tossed to you while drowning in the open sea of active abuse. Stick around and keep asking, for I've heard often that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. That's proven true multiple times in my life, so keep seeking.
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Originally Posted by firestorm090
Death comes in many forms, but it's hard to imagine a worse fate than to wake up with bleary, bllodshot eyes, look in the mirror and recoil and how we look, check our wallet to see the only things left are dust and old barroom receipts. Then we pick up the phone to call a couple people whom we were with the night prior, desperately hoping we didn't alienate the entire community, family members especially, only to find that some just hang up, tired of hearing and dealing with the bs we spew to cover our inappropriate behavior. That's what I call a death of the soul, or at least a darn good beating of our emotional ties to life. Sometimes death is in the form of those lost eyes of our families, looking into our parent's, or spouse's or children's eyes only to see the absolute defeat they feel toward us coupled with total despair and frustration. Relationships die, friendships die and family ties die off one-by-one as we progress toward total insanity.
Yes, death comes in many forms and is always awaiting the next guest to the misery and the end.
Death can also come to the addiction cycle if we are determined to fight for life with all we've got and most often that's not enough, we need outside help till we become stronger. It's suicide to try to overcome cancer by treating it yourself most of the time, and to amny alcoholics, outside help is the only way to humble us enough to want to live our lives differently. Over time the change becomes total, but never complete. We eliminate the booze only to discover we've just begun dealing with the problem.
It's great that you're hear and asking for help and that may possibly be the lifeline tossed to you while drowning in the open sea of active abuse. Stick around and keep asking, for I've heard often that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. That's proven true multiple times in my life, so keep seeking.
Yes, death comes in many forms and is always awaiting the next guest to the misery and the end.
Death can also come to the addiction cycle if we are determined to fight for life with all we've got and most often that's not enough, we need outside help till we become stronger. It's suicide to try to overcome cancer by treating it yourself most of the time, and to amny alcoholics, outside help is the only way to humble us enough to want to live our lives differently. Over time the change becomes total, but never complete. We eliminate the booze only to discover we've just begun dealing with the problem.
It's great that you're hear and asking for help and that may possibly be the lifeline tossed to you while drowning in the open sea of active abuse. Stick around and keep asking, for I've heard often that when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. That's proven true multiple times in my life, so keep seeking.
i'm not high here on this picture,
this is from tears...
i'm not ashamed about this, not of part of detox emotions right now...I think.....the reason i share this,
i've got this picture as my wallpaper...to remind me.
the day before yesterday...this was.
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excuse me....
pic above is from the 30th...
pic below is from yesterdag...
major 'aura' change...physical health will improve in time.
http://i176.photobucket.com/albums/w...r/c3c38c9c.jpg
pic above is from the 30th...
pic below is from yesterdag...
major 'aura' change...physical health will improve in time.
http://i176.photobucket.com/albums/w...r/c3c38c9c.jpg
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Checked out the photo and can totally relate.
Now imagine posting a new photo a few days or weeks from now with a huge smile on your face and sense of purpose, direction and worthiness in being here sober, just as you were when you popped out of the oven. That's the true essence of living, being who we are without the mask of drugs, booze, dysfunctional relationships, and appreciating our life, warts, scars, wrinckles and all.
I've yet to meet one person who told me they liked me better when I was drunk, but did meet some who tossed me out of the bar when I thought I deserved another drink. I like being liked much better, so I steer clear of the places that sometimes showed me the door, lol.
Now imagine posting a new photo a few days or weeks from now with a huge smile on your face and sense of purpose, direction and worthiness in being here sober, just as you were when you popped out of the oven. That's the true essence of living, being who we are without the mask of drugs, booze, dysfunctional relationships, and appreciating our life, warts, scars, wrinckles and all.
I've yet to meet one person who told me they liked me better when I was drunk, but did meet some who tossed me out of the bar when I thought I deserved another drink. I like being liked much better, so I steer clear of the places that sometimes showed me the door, lol.
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i've got this tattood on my back between my 18th and 20th....
from bottom to top...
courage, be different, harmony, love,
i've realised the truth in this from a very young age,
i also underestimated the full force and responsibilty and discpline this takes
from bottom to top...
courage, be different, harmony, love,
i've realised the truth in this from a very young age,
i also underestimated the full force and responsibilty and discpline this takes
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